Accountability - Thursday

This has been quite a day! Frustration was the word for the day...and I wish I had more time to get into a description...


My eats for today:  
5:00 am 10 oz coffee w/NSA Swiss Miss   6:00 am 1/4 serving protein waffles with 1 serving Naturally More peanut butter and 1 serving of sugar free honey (LOTS of stuff on top of that waffle!)
7:00 am 24 oz Drink Mix, GV Strawberry
8:00 am 1 oz mozzarella cheese stick
8:45 am 24 oz Drink Mix, Hawaiian Punch Berry Limeade
9:00 am 1/4 serving protein waffles with 1/2 serving peanut butter and splenda
10:00 am 24 oz Drink Mix, Crystal Light Peach Raspberry
11:15 am 2 TVP and bean burritos with cheese and ketchup (no taco sauce available...whatever!)
11:45 am the rest of that Peach/Raspberry and an iced coffee w/soy milk and splenda
12:45 pm 24 oz Drink Mix, Morning spark Grapefruit Caffeinated

This is when it got crazy:

1:30 pm 24 oz Drink Mix, I forget which one..

2:00 pm 1 oz mozzarella cheese stick: 3 TIMES..and then a sort of peanut butter chewy bar of some sort..95 calories, not sure how many grams protein.

3:00 pm 24 oz Drink Mix, something caffeinated
4:00 pm 24 oz Drink Mix, something good...can't remember
6:30 pm 2 salisbury steaks in cheese, 1/2 cup mashed potatoes, 1/2 cup canned carrots

No more food but another 24 oz Drink Mix..I'm thirsty!
Totals for the day (brace yourself!) 
Calories: 1976
Fat: 78.9
Carbs: 169.1
Protein: 176.4

I don't know what was up with me today and the snacks during the training session..I ate so much but I also drank a bunch of water...

How did you do? 

Frustration was the word for the day here as well; actually for the week!
1200-1/2 turkey and havarti
1300-baked lays
1500-200 calories of orange slice candies
1700-roast, 1/4 c brown rice, brocoli
1800-small piece of birthday cake
2030-roast on 100 cal sandwich thin w light mayo and mustard
all my water and such and no exercise. I did not toal but they would nothave been good with candy and cake! I am getting back on the wagon tomorrow.
Mary

I have those off-road days alot lately...I'm trying to get back on the pavement..I'm up a couple of pounds because of this junk so I need to really get it under control and back on the right trail..

Keep up the good work. See ya.

Its been a very depressing day for me unfortunately.... well - yesterday was just emotionally down...
i started off stepping on the scale & getting not so encouraging news. that stuck w/ me throughout the day.
then later in the afternoon, i get the heartbreaking news that my brothers 2nd rott has cancer & they'll most likely going to put him down. this is the 2nd time they've had to go through this (his 1st rott also had cancer) & its not like the dog is old! He's only 6 or 7.
So its just heart breaking... this news came in at about 2pm yesterday (right about when the afternoon munchies kick in b/c im tired & my body wants stuff for fuel/energy) - so of course i wanted to eat!
but instead of eating & eating & eating some more - i went outside, jumped on a bike for a bit then on the treadmill for 20 mins. i was surprised that exercising actually worked in taking my mind off of the situation.
so thats a good thing & a lessons learned in coping. what ppl have said all along is true (at least for me) exercise is a good coping mechanism.

yesterday was my 2nd day of day 2 in the 5DPT.
im still taking my vits & got in over 100 oz of water yesterday.
while i didnt completely stick to day 2 of the 5D meal plan - i dont think i did too bad...

Food Item	Servings	Cals	Fat	Sodium		Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Black Coffee breakfast	1.00	5	0g	4mg		1g	0g	0g	0g
Chobani Non-fat Plain breakfast	1.00	140	0g	95mg		9g	9g	0g	23g
EAS Soy Protein Powder breakfast	1.00	170	2g	190mg		19g	17g	0g	20g
Safeway Signature Cafe Bella Minestrone Soup lunch	1.00	120	2g	700mg		21g	14g	3g	5g
Atkins Advantage Chocolate Peanut Butter Bar afternoon snack	1.00	240	11g	220mg		22g	1g	10g	18g
Eggo Buttermilk Waffles afternoon snack (Emotional eating)	1.00	180	6g	420mg		26g	2g	1g	5g
Beef, Ground, 90% Lean Meat / 10% Fat, Patty, Cooked, Pan-broiled [hamburger, Ground Sirloin] dinner	1.00	175	9g	64mg		0g	0g	0g	22g
Atkins Advantage Caramel Chocolate Peanut Nougat Bar evening snack	1.00	170	11g	150mg		19g	1g	11g	10g
Great Value Cherry Limeade Drink Mix Sugar Free	16.00	0	0g	160mg		0g	0g	0g	0g
Frigo Frigo Cheese Heads String Cheese (eaten throughout the day)	3.00	240	18g	600mg		0g	0g	0g	18g
Fitness	Minutes
Treadmill - level @ 3 mph	20.0
		Cals	Fat	Sodium		Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein
Click totals for charts!	Totals:	1,332	59g	2,603mg		117g	44g	25g	121g

You did really good! Jumping on the bike instead of stuffing your face is a GREAT thing to do...It's like building a transfer addiction..Good job.

I'm sorry to hear about that doggie..I love doggies. I was just eyeballing an ad for a pocket puppy myself (yorkie, you know, window shopping) but I love big dogs too. Rotties and Pits even...they all need love. But think about the life that dog might have had if your brother hadn't had him..He'd suffer because the other owners might not have had the heart to put him down...it's actually better this way because he won't suffer..We figure we run a retirement home for our doggies. We adopted one that we were told was 7 yrs but the vet says from how thin his skin is, he's 12 or 13..Oh well, he's got the good life with us! Well fed and a nice soft pillow to sleep on; three squares.. What more could a senior citizen doggie want? 

And the number on the scale is just that. Look at what you might have had the day before. You might have had too much salt and the water stuck with you...or not enough fiber and some other stuff stuck with you (if you know what I mean...a good poop might be in order. LOL).

It's not the number on the scale that depresses you but your REACTION to that number. You need to think of ways to get that perception from your head..It's just a number and it doesn't tell the WHOLE story...

Keep up the good work. You're doing AWESOME...See ya.

Thanks so much Dawn.
I really needed that bit of encouragement.
I shook off the blues & moved in to action mode today & felt much better.
I spoke to my brother & now i know exactly what kind of cancer we're dealing with. I researched everything from what it is to diet to treatment options & support groups & then made an info packet for them to read through.
I found out that he's got about 3 months, so we've got a little time & he's not suffering or in any pain at all. so thats great! If he were, my brother would put him down right away, but now, like i said, we're just gonna love on him as much as we can while we can.

Thank you so much.
i really really appreciate your kind words & encouragement.

I'm so glad..He's doing the right thing for his buddy..When our cat was old and dying in 2008 I was in denial for about a week. He quit eating and quit drinking so I started forcing him to eat and drink. I got scratched and bit for my trouble. He looked miserable. He was. When I finally decided to have him put to sleep, I had a choice to take him and drop him off. I thought about it and he really didn't like the vet's office. He'd get so upset at being there that he wouldn't eat and I had to go and hand feed him when he was there..So, being that I loved that cat more than anything..I went and held him as he breathed his last. It was the hardest thing I ever did in my life and I cried and it HURT...but I did it for him, not for me..It was the last loving thing that I could do for him..I cry now as I type this but I still don't regret doing the best that I could for an animal.

I'll pray for your brother and his rottie...I just love animals so much!

 

oommmmmgggggg that is such a touching story.
my brother did the same with his first rott. he said it was the hardest thing he's ever had to do.
i remember that day almost like it was yesterday.my parents were there & everything. I couldnt be there b/c of work (how am i going to tell my boss i have to go be with my family b/c we are putting the dog down?! i miss everything b/c of work! ) but i sobbed (all day at work) like i was right there with them. i miss not getting able to say goodbye.
Putting his baby down HURT my poor brother so much. So i understand that. He even got a tatoo over it. Now he's looking at having to do it again - after such a short time. He's really having a difficult time with it. I just wish there was something i could do to help him.

My boss once missed a half a day of work when they put down their dog so,yeah...You can take a personal need day and you don't have to tell them ANYTHING..I like that about PN days. Some days I use sick days cuz of "eye trouble." I just can't "see" myself at work that day. LOL.

Painful events make you a stronger person. I imagine that refining silver is painful, if silver could feel the heat but when it comes out, it's more pure and more beautiful than ever. So what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger, more beautiful and more able to help others along their way..Your brother is a wonderful person and he'll have opportunity to use this pain later..

Tell your brother that there are folks (me included) that believe we'll see our beloved pets in heaven when we get there. I mean, without my little fur babies, how could it be heaven? 

Bless you both! and just love that puppy! He'll know he's loved and that's all that matters.
 

 

LMAO!!!! THATS FRICKEN AWESOME!!!!
"EYE TROUBLE"

we had a good day w/ him today. I dunno - puppy boy looks pretty good. hes all active - same as normal. It was a nice day w/ him. :)