AFTER

4 years and 3 months I am just now waking up at night hungry as a mad dog. I eat and then go back to sleep. It is not healthy food either. Chips are my weakness. I do take some fruit to bed with me in case I wake up hungry. What in the world has started this? I don't eat much during the day at all. But I am proud to say I went to 90 lbs. back up to 110. Trying and struggling hard to stay there. Seems like I am eating and drinking all the time. Just don't love this night eating. I remember it and not taking the sleeping pills that you eat and don't remember. Oh well I am all ass backwards.

 

Amy

As long as it's not making you feel out of control, I think it's okay. Actually, eating every couple of hours is a good thing..I have to do that to maintain my weight. You might start a note pad and just jot down when you eat something...You might find that you actually are just eating every couple of hours instead of all the time.

Eating disorders are really hard. Whether you eat a ton and barf or eat nothing at all or do like I do and can't stop eating sugary/carby treats...We just have to work at getting back on the right path.

Strength is out there, waiting for you to find it... Encouragement you've already found, right here...

Love you

Dawn

I go to eating to much to not near enough. To drugs. Now to mini skirts. As short as I can get them. I had no teenage life and think I am trying to hard to live it now. I am 45 and dress like a 18 year old. People think I am a teenager. In a way I like it and in a way of men it is not that good. I only get ask out by teens and 20's. I can't do that I have a son 23. One day I will get it right. I will just keep praying for God to carry me down his path he wants me on not the one I want on. God loves me no matter  what I have on or not have on. Thank God we don't have a clothing judge God.

 

Love ya all

Amy.....living my teenage life the like I would loved it to been. 

 

I know what you mean! I have been known to wear shorter skirts than I ever have, even in the early 70's when I was really young and they were IN. Some of the girls at work wear shorter skirts and they don't look as good as I do in them...so what is the harm? There isn't much harm when I'm at work but there are slimey guys out there. I try and stay as safe as I can...Dexter worries about me.

It's nice to recapture some of what we missed as a fat girl...