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I went and got hooked up with some high calorie high protein shake mix. Fixed me one and thought no problem. Well hell!! It is 32 oz.. I have drank and drank and I really do think the more I drink the more gets in my bottle. I got to do this. In one drink their is a little over 500 calories a shake. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this........................I got to do this...............................

 

Amy

32 oz! That's cool. Just be sure you do that AND eat that occasional big mac! You have so much catching up to do.  But you can do it.

Don't you feel like you're missing out with all of us stressing over being too heavy? LOL. j/k.

You can do this. Once you get some calories in you, you can exercise and walk and you'll feel better. There are hormones your body produces when you exercise that help your mental frame of mind. Maybe no sunshine lately but you can walk around and pick up whatever sunshine you can get.

I'm so happy you found one you like. That's great.

Thank you. You give me hope yet...I feel bad posting and *****ing about not eating. I remember when I would have died to be in my shoes. I hated skinny people like me. I mean I really hated them *****es lol.....

 

Even I have faith and hope in my heart. Just don't show it much. My kids are getting grown and I go days an days without seeing a human person. Or the touch of a person. Somedays I just need a hug. And I am not a touch person. 

 

AMY

I know! I KNOW! I used to hate skinny *****es too! Now I feel sort of sorry for the obese people I come into contact with because, I've been there. And seriously, I see all people differently now. Even the super thin people because, like with you, I know how difficult it can be.

That's why when people call me skinny, I'm quick to tell them, I'm not skinny. I've gained 8 pounds since I was "skinny." LOL. It's all in the eye of the beholder. I know I'm not skinny but I also know I"m not fat either.

Most days I can't think of one person on earth that couldn't USE a nice hug. I never used to be a touchy person either but I lost so many loved ones before I could tell them that I love them that I do it each and every time I speak to them...I tell my dad, I love you. Now that is a big deal. He's definitely not the touchy sort of lovey person that would do that back but I don't care. I tell him because I want him to know, I love him...Just so he knows. In case something happens before I see him again...He knows. And I know he knows. And when I say goodbye, I hug him. He looks pained when I do it but he's getting better.

The best thing about going to church for me was when they had hugs when I was growing up as a greeting at the begining of the services. It was a youth group thing, I guess.

So, if you want to hug someone, do it...And tell everyone you love that you love them..It couldn't hurt.

YES YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Girl I got to get my crap together. I have so lost it. Tired of putting my 23 and 18 year old through this. I got to grow up....lol at 43 years old. Age gets to me more than weight and thats a biggie for me. I lie. my myspace saids I am 36. lol....hey what works. lol....I ate and feel so much better like laughing. I love you all. Yaw keep me going. Thanks

 

Amy