wish me luck

Very scared. I wish I could take someone with me. But they want let me. I have my first DBTgroup today. I am scared of people. I don't know how many people will be in there. Or if I have to stand up and tell about myself I will pass the freak out. My nerves are on the end. I got the craps. Worring so much this weekend I lost 2 more lbs. Oh well I am grown I gotta suck it up and do it. We all gotta do things we don't want to. Thank you all for the help. If I can ever help anyone of you please for the love of God let me know. 

 

Be Blessed

Amy

God is so with you.  I know the feeling and the fear.  You can get through it and it will be ok!

~Maxine

You can go ahead and take ME with you. I'll hold your hand and give you a hug.

As you sit there you can feel my arm around your shoulder and feel better. It's gonna be alright..

You be BLESSED too! I'm praying for you!

Dawn

How did it go?

Didn't go very well. The doctor wouldn't let me talk. When I tried to tell them what was wrong with me and why I was there. The doctor told me not to say that. Or what was wrong with me. I would trigger others into doing things. I ask her why the fu@k was I even there? It is a 6 month class. I started at almost the end. I was so freaking lost. I had no clue what they was talking about. The next day I called my counsler and ask her what the hell was going on. She ask me to go one more time and if I didn't like it or think it was not for me to let her know. It was just a bunch of overweight angry women in there. And here I come in at 100 lbs. And of course I was ask by another person in the class "are you on crack" that fu@king did it. I told her in a nice way I had gastric bypass. She was yeah right. I walked out crying because I don't feel like I belong anywhere at all. That is why I stay home hid. I am a prisoner in my own home and body. Not much has changed from being over weight to under weight. People still judge and point at me. I don't care I am still going to go back to the class and at least try. Thanks for asking.

 

 

Maybe she doesn't know what's going on in there.  Overweight angry women...now, that's a problem but not for you...they're eating because they're angry and you're starving because you're angry... In a way, you're both using food but for different outcomes. All mental issues but different. Most people in this country have that problem. They eat to apply a balm (food) to their anger issues and stress issues.

I'm so sorry that people judge you and point at you. And the reaction of the other people in the class was wrong too. Fat people are invisible and eat to stay that way. It's just as hard to be on either end of the spectrum.

You do belong in there! You belong anywhere you want to be and if you want to be in that class and seek help, then they shouldn't judge you because you look different than they do (fat)...MAKE them let you stay there if you want...You have to fight to come out of that prison...fight hard...

I'm hoping you stick to it! I'm behind you. Let me know how it goes! If you need someone to listen...let me know.