Time to get Serious!
Tracy,
you know I have total confidence that you will get back on tract faster than you think!!! your always my inspiration. I havnt been to this site for a long time because life has been crazy. I am up 2 pounds since 10/20 but it should be much more. I have been pigging out to the point I feel miserable. Eating food- go figure, I dont even like food. most days I am so stuffed i hate myself but will continue to eat. I stopped the treadmill because I wasnt losing anything anyways and i figured thats why I was "hungry" all the time. but if we are confessing i am heating to hide pain. My poohbear dented my heart, not qute broke it because we are trying to work this out but damaged badly. the stomache pain hides the heart pain. ANYWAY i decided yesterday that enough was enough and today, so far, im doing much better. I am sure the scale wil soon catch up to the actual damage I have done.
thanks for making me feel normal
hugs
Diana
RNY 91/7/03
360/ 191/ no longer aiming for 180
you know I have total confidence that you will get back on tract faster than you think!!! your always my inspiration. I havnt been to this site for a long time because life has been crazy. I am up 2 pounds since 10/20 but it should be much more. I have been pigging out to the point I feel miserable. Eating food- go figure, I dont even like food. most days I am so stuffed i hate myself but will continue to eat. I stopped the treadmill because I wasnt losing anything anyways and i figured thats why I was "hungry" all the time. but if we are confessing i am heating to hide pain. My poohbear dented my heart, not qute broke it because we are trying to work this out but damaged badly. the stomache pain hides the heart pain. ANYWAY i decided yesterday that enough was enough and today, so far, im doing much better. I am sure the scale wil soon catch up to the actual damage I have done.
thanks for making me feel normal
hugs
Diana
RNY 91/7/03
360/ 191/ no longer aiming for 180
Hi Diana!!! I'm so sorry to hear that things haven't been going well lately~I hope you can get it all worked out!!!!! We all know about eating to mask the pain~its what lead alot of us to MO~thankfully now our tool keeps us somewhat in check so we can't do the damage we used to be able to do!!!!! Let me know how things are going for you and you know if you ever need to talk, I'm only an email away!!!!!
I'm actually doing alot better already, thank goodness! I've eaten well all week and worked out like I should be~it feels good. I haven't gotten on the scale, but I will on monday to see if I lost anything. If not, I'll just keep trying!!!!!! I hate that I put myself back in this position again~I know its a manageable amount of weight, but urgh, I hate having to "diet"!!!! Thanks for your encouragement!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I did notice that you're maintaining nicely under 200~Congratulations!!!!!!!
I'm actually doing alot better already, thank goodness! I've eaten well all week and worked out like I should be~it feels good. I haven't gotten on the scale, but I will on monday to see if I lost anything. If not, I'll just keep trying!!!!!! I hate that I put myself back in this position again~I know its a manageable amount of weight, but urgh, I hate having to "diet"!!!! Thanks for your encouragement!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I did notice that you're maintaining nicely under 200~Congratulations!!!!!!!
~*~Tracy B~*~
328/160 *** 5'9"
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