Dangerous waters

As some of you are aware, I suffer from major clinical depression and have for many years. It is severe enough that I must take a pharmacy full of meds and I'm still not 'okay. At any rate, I've been under a great deal of stress lately and when that happens my depression and anxiety worsen. I have posted about some stressors, but there are is a great deal going on under the surface that I don't discuss and to say that I'm stressed is a MAJOR understatement. Unfortunately, I have found that despite my efforts to maintain my equilibrium, I'm failing. I'm find myself in very dangerous waters. I'm not eating well... instead, I'm finding myself comfort eating. I'm consuming way too many simple carbs and not nearly enough of the good stuff I should be consuming. I'm also having trouble remembering to take my supplements ... and my anti-depressants.

Right now, I'm struggling to do the basic things I need to do to take care of me... Taking my my meds and vitamins. Preparing nutritious meals. Getting exercise.

My weight is holding steady... but, I know that I'm not taking care of myself. I worry about the longer term implications of my behavior. I'm working on it. I'm trying hard. But, I'm not being nearly as successful as I would like.

When things are going okay, I seem to do well. When I'm struggling some, I can keep my head above water, but now that I'm really taking on water and tanking, so is my nutrition. I find this really frightening.

Barbara, I'm so sorry that you're having such a difficult time right now. You're right though~you need to take care of yourself. I went thru a tough time at about 2yrs out and my eating was terrible~I didn't eat much and what I ate wasn't quality stuff~then I began to feel and see the effects. My hair started to fall out again. I felt drained, tired, agitated, lethargic, etc. Well, all the symptoms kind of scared me straight and once I started eating better everything else got better in time. Take baby steps so things don't get too overwhelming~start with the vitamins and work up from there. I will keep you in my thoughts in hopes that things will get better for you.
(((((((HUGS)))))))

Hi Tracy ...

Thanks for the hugs, suggestions and support.

I don't have any advice to give, but I just wanted you to know I was thinking about you and I am so sorry you are having a hard time right now.  It seems that at about 2 years out I went through a spell and with some therapy was able to get it back together.  I hope it all works out and you feel better soon.

Melissa

Thank you

life is like a roller coaster... with its ups and downs.. right now.. it on the down.. but there is only one place left to go.....

i feel compassion for you.... and i will pray for you.. and all of us who struggle with something that seems to be beating us up emotionally/physically. 

i struggle to with taking care of me.. with vitamins.. nutritious meals, and exercise... it is challenging.. that's why it is good that we release on this website... it helps..
so those other things that go on that you don't discuss... release it.... it will make you feel better.
the good thing about venting on this site  is that what we say will be done to people we don't have a life commitment with.

just a hug ((((((())))))))

try one or two small steps
if you have a cell phone set in the time on your alarm to take your meds, and it will ring you each day....helps to not forget

make one meal super easy, breakfast do a protein drink or bar, no fuss just do it every day. That way you know you got some of your protein in every day. It may not help with the comfort eating but it will start off your day on a positive note.

Thank you ... The suggestions are sound ... I'll try putting them to work.