More to life than this

I hate to say this, but you are probably lucky your pouch is so sensitive.  I can eat most anything--well a little of it.  When I eat and feel bad, I forget it pretty soon and do it again.  I know it is sick to do something that is going to make me feel bad, but I keep doing it.  

*raises hand*, again you and I have allot in common.  I'd be happy to get sick as a dog (or I think so anyway, lol) then maybe I'd "learn" a lesson?

Hi Ruby. I am looking into getting the surgery. Not sure what I am going to do. But reading your post, I had to reply. Whether you havd had this surgery or not you will always have to watch what you eat and exercise. You have done an amazing job losing all this weight. My fear is that one day I will gain it all back if I had it done. And some people I talk to have gained it back. But I think you didn't go through all of this for nothing. I wish I could lose the weight so I am able to do things with my children. I have lost out in alot of years. Don't give up!!!!!! Talk soon.

Bonnie

You are right.  Good luck on your journey.  I wish I had had the surgery earlier in life.  Ruby 

Ruby,
Your story is like so many others.
Fight girl!!! You can win this battle!
Try to find that motivation that you lost. Try to remember how excited you were as a fresh post op losing that weight and feeling good.

Maybe it's time to make an apt with a therapist.
You have to know thin people watch what they eat too. They exercise. If they pig out one day they cut back the next.

I'm sorry that the bariatric support groups aren't helping you with your struggles, so now my friend you have to help yourself. Chin up, you can get back on the right track. Can you find a work out buddy? Is it time for an antidepressant to get you through this rough patch?

I'm a revision, had stomach stapeling in the early 1980's.
When I decided to get a revision, I knew this was my LAST chance. I HAD to make this surgery/tool work for me. Very scary thought on getting this surgery and it not working. I REFUSED to let food control me any longer. I had to look at food now as fueling my body. I had to make a lifestyle change. I had to NOT THINK of my new way of eating as a diet. My Nut. told me if I reached for protien first, the rest would all fall into place and it did.

Do I have treats? Hell yes I do. But I don't eat them every day. They are a treat.
Once a great shrink told me that to sit down, savor that treat, roll it around my tounge and enjoy it. Don't feel guilty while your having your planned treat. Also after the 3rd bite, really you have had enough and then it's just you wanting to EAT more.

Again, you are not alone. No one will flame you. Keep posting. Try to reach deep into yourself and figure out why you are sabbatoging yourself. You deserve better. Be kind to yourself. This is not a race to get to a "perfect numbe on the scale" it's for lifetime. Sending you hugs -debbie

Thanks for the encouraging words.  Of course, you are right.  Yesterday was a BAD day, but today is another day and I am up fighting.  Thanks for caring.  Your words have helped a lot.  Ruby  

I understand what you are saying. Every day is a struggle.

I fret. I actually freak out over a half pound of weight gain...I know why though. I don't EVER intend to have a weight problem again. I'll do WHATEVER it takes to stay clear of that whole situation. I measure and weigh my foods, I journal my foods, I go to support group..I come here and read several times a day.

To your problem, I understand what issues you have with the struggle but the alternative is to do nothing. How would nothing work for you? Not too well. You have to keep fighting cuz NOT fighting will definitely not work..Each day is a struggle but life itself is a struggle..

My grandmother used to tell us: "Who told you that life was EASY? They lied." And then a close friend of ours who is much older says all the time: "Growing old isn't for whimps." Both of which are very true statements.

You and your grandmother have great words.  Thanks for your replay and for caring.  Ruby.

A wise man once said the price of liberty is constant vigilance and a constant willingness to fight back no matter the cost.

So I guess I can give up and be fat or keep up the fight and be thin.  For me, I'm going with the mantra: Never Again.

Thanks for your reply.  I, too, say Never Again.  I am up fighting the food monster today.  Thanks for caring.   Ruby