More to life than this

There has got to be more to life than counting calories & protein and exercising.  I am 3 1/2 years out.  I am tired of this 'not dieting' stuff.    COME ON, I had major surgery to get rid of 130 pounds.  Now I struggle every day to not gain it back.  i know all the talk about this is just a 'tool.'  I know go back to basics, etc.  I am just tired of my life centering around what I eat and how much I exercising.  Every time I put on a pair of jeans I hold my breath hoping they will not be tight.  I fret over the 'too tight clothes' in my clothes.  

I am thankful for this surgery, but I am tired and depressed about the contant fight to keep it off.  By the way I am losing the battle.  I just wanted to vent.  Thanks for listening.

Ruby Rosebud
3/11/2005  rny
262/125/139
5'1"
62 years old.  

Hi Patricia L,

I so agree with you, but I am reconciled to the fact it has to be that way the rest of my life. Everyone in my immediate family has always had to battle their weight. I've been overweight since I was 5 and had my surgery at age 54 and here at age 56, I still have 45 more pounds to lose. But I know I'll do it. My body will thank me!

Diana

Thanks for the reply.  I guess I just feel like I am losing the battle, and I am scared!!!  I was so happy with my weight lose, and now it is slipping away from me.  I wish I knew where to turn.  I hear all the right answers, but it is so hard.

Good luck on you journey.  I do not mean to discourage you or others.  

I understand what you're saying~its exhausting sometimes!!! that's usually when I fall off the wagon and eat whatever the hell I want~not good, I know, but it happens from time to time. Then I spend the next couple of weeks or months trying to be good so I can get the weight back off. Its frustrating sometimes~sometimes its bliss. Its such a crazy journey to travel! I too hold my breath when I hop on the scale or put on a pair of jeans~in my mind I guess I'm resigned to the fact that this is my lot in life~its my struggle~my problem to bear. We all get "something" and fighting obesity is mine I guess

i have tried everything, dieting, exercing, support meetings.  There is just not an answer.  We have to just put one foot in front of the other and keep trying.  To be honest, right now I just do not have what it takes.  Sorry to sound so depressing.  Ruby 

I feel your pain and I have put back on about 65 to 70 lbs. i had a baby one year ago and now i cant seen to get it off I try so hard to be good and only eat low cal and carb. I try to get in as much exercise as i can still i do not loose and i seem to just stay the same i upped my cal and water and i lowered my cal and upped my water yet again nothing. so I just am at my wits end I don't know what to do any more. I will not give up I lost about 170lbs and I do not want to gain it all back but it will not come off. any way sorry to take this over but i am just so scared that it will all come back.

I am so sorry.  I can imagine how you feel.  Thanks for sharing.  

I guess we have to just keep trying.  Ruby 

I totally hear what you are saying.   It is a battle....the fight of our lives.    I use to think that thin people were so lucky because they didn't have to fight this problem.   But I finally realize that thin people live a lifestyle that keeps them thin....that lifestyle is exactly what we are expected to live in order to keep the weight off.   They have weight gain that goes up and down....but for some reason they learned either as children or just naturally how to adjust when they needed to in order to maintain.

I'm over 7 years out and I fight the weight gain....but I know that when I see that scale going up...its time to get in gear and be vigilant.  

Sorry this whole thing is testing your endurance, but you will feel better about things when you get back where you want to be.  

Thanks for the encouragement.  I needed the kind words.   Ruby 

I very much feel your pain.  I am 15 months out now.  The other day I just ate some candy...ate it.  All of it.  And got sick as a dog.  And I cried.  Yes, I am thin.  Yes, I am healthier.  But sometimes I want to eat normally, like everyone else.  And I will never be able to.  We have to take the good with the bad.  It seems like I throw up just about every day of my life.  I have such a super sensative pouch....arggggggggggggg!    A big juicy cheeseburger...yum...but I would probably have to go into the hospital lol.