Hello from a binger!
Good evening ladies,
I am almost 18 months post op and am having alot of trouble with binging. It seems to be a uncontrollable urge and i am trying to take it by the horns and help myself get back on track.
I am good at coming up with excuses for why I am doing what i am doing. But i need to get better. I do see that there is a accountability thread that i think that i will take advantage of.
I know right now that what i am eating is not acceptable at ALL.
I am looking for a place where i can receive support and not be jugded as a failure. I think to break this cycle i need the most support that i can get..
I wanted to take a moment and introduce myself.
My name is Jamie and i am a nurse with a major insurance company. I spend alot of my days pre-authing bariatric surgery and providing information regarding the surgery. I need to take my own advise and step up to the plate and behave :)
my highest was 379/ lowest: 250/ current 280
Jamie
I am almost 18 months post op and am having alot of trouble with binging. It seems to be a uncontrollable urge and i am trying to take it by the horns and help myself get back on track.
I am good at coming up with excuses for why I am doing what i am doing. But i need to get better. I do see that there is a accountability thread that i think that i will take advantage of.
I know right now that what i am eating is not acceptable at ALL.
I am looking for a place where i can receive support and not be jugded as a failure. I think to break this cycle i need the most support that i can get..
I wanted to take a moment and introduce myself.
My name is Jamie and i am a nurse with a major insurance company. I spend alot of my days pre-authing bariatric surgery and providing information regarding the surgery. I need to take my own advise and step up to the plate and behave :)
my highest was 379/ lowest: 250/ current 280
Jamie
Jamie, Welcome to the Grad Board!
We don't judge and you won't find a more supportative group. Anyone who has lost 119 lbs is not a failure!
I can relate to the binging. It seems to be the story of my life since WLS. Sometimes it's healthy things, sometimes not so healthy, but it seems like I get in these cycles where I can't get enough of something. Right now it's Taco Soup-- not too bad as long as I don't add too much sour cream. And faux Chocolate Banana Vivanos (skim milk, banana, scoop of chocolate proteim and a teaspoon of instant expresso). Other times, it's been really bad things, Cheese Its, Oreos, Halloween candy.
It sounds like you've got a great job!
You can still lose a lot, but it takes hard work and determination. You know what to do and you CAN do it!
Michele
We don't judge and you won't find a more supportative group. Anyone who has lost 119 lbs is not a failure!
I can relate to the binging. It seems to be the story of my life since WLS. Sometimes it's healthy things, sometimes not so healthy, but it seems like I get in these cycles where I can't get enough of something. Right now it's Taco Soup-- not too bad as long as I don't add too much sour cream. And faux Chocolate Banana Vivanos (skim milk, banana, scoop of chocolate proteim and a teaspoon of instant expresso). Other times, it's been really bad things, Cheese Its, Oreos, Halloween candy.
It sounds like you've got a great job!
You can still lose a lot, but it takes hard work and determination. You know what to do and you CAN do it!
Michele
Hi Jamie
this is a great board for support rather than condemnation. I've just started recently posting on the accountability thread and it has really helped me reign in my eating. Helps me be more aware of what I am eating and make a concious decision each time I chose to eat. No I don't get it right 99% of the time, but the important thing is I'm doing better than I was before.
If that is something that you think may help, please join us. Dawn who starts the thread is really supportive and never condecending.
BUT, you have already taken the first step and that is being honest about what you are doing. You know that you are not helping yourself. Only you can change that at the end of the day. But with the help and support of people here, I know you can do it - after all you've done so well already!!
Look forward to seeing more of you.
Ruth
this is a great board for support rather than condemnation. I've just started recently posting on the accountability thread and it has really helped me reign in my eating. Helps me be more aware of what I am eating and make a concious decision each time I chose to eat. No I don't get it right 99% of the time, but the important thing is I'm doing better than I was before.
If that is something that you think may help, please join us. Dawn who starts the thread is really supportive and never condecending.
BUT, you have already taken the first step and that is being honest about what you are doing. You know that you are not helping yourself. Only you can change that at the end of the day. But with the help and support of people here, I know you can do it - after all you've done so well already!!
Look forward to seeing more of you.
Ruth
thank you everyone for your kind words!
Last nigth i put all my ice cream and contrac band in the sink or garbage.
this morning my gameplan is to do this:
Breakfast:
2 egg omlet with bacon wont eat the whole thing :)
Snacks bring 2 protein drinks with me
1 cotage cheese single serving thing
Lunch:
sautee sprimp with garlic
Dinner: chicken and veggies
thats the plan anyways I am gping to document on git my and try to keep true to myslrf.
A question for you guys?
do you drink alot of milk or maybe this is a no no?
I tend to dink about a 1/4 gallon a day. I think this may be another one of my issues.
again i want to thanks everyone for there warm welcome.
If anyone needs assist with policies regarding anything bariatric or skin removal I will be happt to help you giys get the criteria that youi need or answer any insurance questions that you have..unless its claims..:)
Jamie
Last nigth i put all my ice cream and contrac band in the sink or garbage.
this morning my gameplan is to do this:
Breakfast:
2 egg omlet with bacon wont eat the whole thing :)
Snacks bring 2 protein drinks with me
1 cotage cheese single serving thing
Lunch:
sautee sprimp with garlic
Dinner: chicken and veggies
thats the plan anyways I am gping to document on git my and try to keep true to myslrf.
A question for you guys?
do you drink alot of milk or maybe this is a no no?
I tend to dink about a 1/4 gallon a day. I think this may be another one of my issues.
again i want to thanks everyone for there warm welcome.
If anyone needs assist with policies regarding anything bariatric or skin removal I will be happt to help you giys get the criteria that youi need or answer any insurance questions that you have..unless its claims..:)
Jamie
Hi Jamie,
Welcome and you won't get any bashing here, just good ole' support.
Now...ask yourself why you are binging? Reach into your inner self and really explore why you are sabbotoging yourself.
Are you attending a bariatric support group in your area?
Most important as you concentrate on making the right food choices, are you exercising?
Challenge yourself everyday. You are a success. This is not a diet but a lifestyle change. This is for lifetime and so what if it takes you a few years to get to your goal?
Good luck Jamie and keep posting.
Ill answer the milk question below first - I dont tend to drink a lot of milk, it makes me sick if I drink it in the morning so I can only drink it at night - just keep an eye on the sugar you are drinking... I suggest trying hood carb countdown as a good milk since its lower carb and I believe lower sugar - gotta look at the big picture and see how its falling into your day nutrition wise.
Anyways, your problem is common so no bashing. I suggest picking up The Beck Diet Solution - you may already be familiar, it deals with the mental side of eating and not the actucal diet/what you are eating part. There is a workbook that goes with it that is most helpful. You said you are comming up with excuses but do you know the root reason why you are binging? Perhaps start a mood journal (instead of food) when you are wanting to binge write down how you are feeling, what happened, are there triggers causing you to want to eat? Once you can identify a behavior/pattern you can work on changing it. I know personally I eat when bored so I have to keep an eye... once I start I can just keep going. I have a list of things I can do besides eat that I go to when I know I am eating for an emotional reason. Sometimes I will give in a little but I make a concious decision about what I am going to eat and how much of it... mindless eating will get me every time - I always try and let time pass to see if the urge will go away first, sometimes the monster is bigger than other times and I can only fight it so much. Basically the way Ive worked it so far is to find a happy medium... being 'bad' now and then is ok IMO, but doing it all the time is destructive... just have to find what works for you!
Anyways, your problem is common so no bashing. I suggest picking up The Beck Diet Solution - you may already be familiar, it deals with the mental side of eating and not the actucal diet/what you are eating part. There is a workbook that goes with it that is most helpful. You said you are comming up with excuses but do you know the root reason why you are binging? Perhaps start a mood journal (instead of food) when you are wanting to binge write down how you are feeling, what happened, are there triggers causing you to want to eat? Once you can identify a behavior/pattern you can work on changing it. I know personally I eat when bored so I have to keep an eye... once I start I can just keep going. I have a list of things I can do besides eat that I go to when I know I am eating for an emotional reason. Sometimes I will give in a little but I make a concious decision about what I am going to eat and how much of it... mindless eating will get me every time - I always try and let time pass to see if the urge will go away first, sometimes the monster is bigger than other times and I can only fight it so much. Basically the way Ive worked it so far is to find a happy medium... being 'bad' now and then is ok IMO, but doing it all the time is destructive... just have to find what works for you!
First visit to surgeon - 288 ~ bmi 45.1
2 week pre-op 252 ~ bmi 39.5
Total lost - 153 Since surgery - 117!
Goal weight - 155 (mine) 180 (surgeons)
Current weight - 135 (2020 I lost 10lbs due to dedicating myself to working out more and being in better shape)
1/14/2025 still maintaining 135 :-)
Extended TT, lipo, fat injections - 11/2011
BA/BL/Arm Lift - 7/2014
Scar revision on arms - 3/2015
HALO laser on arms/neck 9/2016
Thigh Lift 10/2020
Thigh Lift revision 10/2021
Hello and welcome.
Would you list your excuses to yourself why your binging?
Ill bet seeing them on "paper" here on the board would make you giggle and make them seem silly.. and help us too!!!!!!!!
Hope that doesnt sound mean but it came to me that I make them too somtimes and would love to see yours!
Hugs and welcome!
Would you list your excuses to yourself why your binging?
Ill bet seeing them on "paper" here on the board would make you giggle and make them seem silly.. and help us too!!!!!!!!
Hope that doesnt sound mean but it came to me that I make them too somtimes and would love to see yours!
Hugs and welcome!
Start Weight - 263
Current Weight 135 and making it work for ME !
usually i binge when i am bored. I sit at a computer all day in a little cubical and then i start grazing on nuts and then move up to the choloate. I binge when i am angry or stressed or depresed. I am very bitter about my weight and size and finances. I want another child very baby very badly but we can't afford it, and I had back surgery that was not completely finished as my weight at the time was way to high and they could not get the instrments in all the way to repair the hernation but they were able to relieve the nerve compression.
My husband and I work full time, which i hate, i want to be with my son. And the thing that kills me is that every penny goes to bills. we cant even pay our taxes, we are behind on them and there is nothing that i can do about it. From my laminetomy it is very painful to lift people or go back to the bedside. I was a ICU nurse before i did insurance and i loved it. when i became " crippled" it took me out of the bedside.
I know that the bitterness and resentment does not help my situtation. we tried to sell our house last summer to down size but the ecomony is so bad that we would have taken a severe loss with the house.
I know that eating is not helping my stress it is making it worst!
thanks you everyone for your support
My husband and I work full time, which i hate, i want to be with my son. And the thing that kills me is that every penny goes to bills. we cant even pay our taxes, we are behind on them and there is nothing that i can do about it. From my laminetomy it is very painful to lift people or go back to the bedside. I was a ICU nurse before i did insurance and i loved it. when i became " crippled" it took me out of the bedside.
I know that the bitterness and resentment does not help my situtation. we tried to sell our house last summer to down size but the ecomony is so bad that we would have taken a severe loss with the house.
I know that eating is not helping my stress it is making it worst!
thanks you everyone for your support
Hi Jamie! No flames here! I think this happens to many post ops and they struggle instead of seeking help, so you've taken the first BIG step! Have you done any kind of therapy w/someone that specializes in eating disorders? This really helped me at about 2yrs post op. Boredom can be a symptom that leads to binging, but usually there are some feelings going on behind the scenes~not sure if thats the case for you, but its something to think about. Logging my food/exercise at the dailyplate.com helps me sometimes b/c when I'm honest and log in EVERYTHING I don't want to see 800cal from cookies or candy! I also think coming here on a daily basis helps to keep us grounded and in the right frame of mind, so don't be a stranger!
Good Luck and Keep us posted!
Good Luck and Keep us posted!
~*~Tracy B~*~
328/160 *** 5'9"
start/current
Hi Jamie,I know exactly what you are talking about I have been on this bing thing too, I am almost at the 18 month mark too and have lost about 103 pounds and have gained 13 pounds back and its driving me nuts, but I still find my self binging on the sweets and the salt like chips. mostly sugar though thats my weakness, even when i get sick to my stomach after eating sweets I still find myself reaching for them, I am so tired all the time and I feel like this just gives me a boost but than im right back down again. I have a real tough time getting my water in..too hows that going for you? welcome to the site.
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