So guess it is My Turn to Fess Up!

So I am thinking if I post my story it will allow me to be realistic and admitt I need help!  So  I  orginally  had my RNY on Feb  10, 2005. I started at 325 and at my  lowest  I was 191. I was so happy at this weight!! I was finally getting into size 14s!!! I worked out 5 times a week and loved it!  So 15 months after my sugery I found out I was pregnant with our first child! I had many many infertility tests done where a very good Fertility Doctor told me I am so sorry, but you will never have kids. HMMMM....I want my $20,000 back!! lol So get pregnant with our little angel end up weighing 245lbs when I delivered, guess that is what 7months of bedrest will do for you! So immediately dropped down to 218 where I stayed til now...went to the Dr today and I now weigh 230!!! I am back in 18's and I am stinking miserable!!! We just moved to Alaska (married to the military) and I know that is why I have gained the weight! The stress of the move, no job (so I snack all the time), hubby getting ready to deploy to Iraq, baby girl already in the terriable twos even though she is only 17months...need i say more. So now that I am done with the excuses...I need support!! I need to get back under 200!! I really need to prove to myself that I can do this again, even with a very busy family life! Why don't I like to workout anymore?? Oh probably because I am sooo tired all the time! Now after going to the Dr's today they say I have a heart mumur!! Ok so not the end of the world, but still a concern! So now I really need to do something! I have started to log my food today on fitday and I am hoping to get some cardio in. I am thinking about the 5 day pouch test. But I just really need support and guidance before I ruin all my hard work!! Thanks in advance!

Wow!!!

Isn't it amazing how life happens to us all? Sounds like you've had lots of blessings as well as lots of trials.

When I worked out religiously, i thought to myself "wow! This is awesome. I'll never go back to my old lifestyle!" HA! Famous last words, huh?

Anyway, it's so cool that you're here now to start all over! Read through the posts here and learn all you can.

HERE IS A LINK THAT IS LIKE GOLD:
http://www.afboard.com/forum/member-pictures/486-t-cakes-sto ry-photo-progression.html

This gal's post was so inspirational to me in showing me what working out can do for your body.

You can DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!! You can own this thing again and get back into your size 14's and you'll be feeling like a hottie in no time. It's all about planning, logging and sicking to your food log wheather you use fitday.com or dailyplate.com. Figure out your BMR and GO FOR IT! Get back to the gym. It builds so much confidence.

Huge hugs and welcome back!
Molly

YOU CAN DO THIS!  You have done it before and you CAN do it again.  I am 2 years and 7 months out and when I started out I weighed 308.  I got down to about 130 and got pregnant at 10 months out.  I am back down to 155 but I really want to be back to 130.  I am going to start the pouch thing Monday.  I got all the stuff to do this.  I can hear how miserable you are and I will be praying for you.  I just found this forum and since being here I have felt support.  Come see us anytime.  God bless, Penni

Wow, you really have alot going on!!! I can understand how you got off track! But, the good thing is you CAN get back on track and do this!!! I remember the days of having little little ones (mine are now 11 and 7) and it sure is hard to make time for yourself~get up and do it early or wait and do it in the evening after she goes to bed~its hard to get motivated sometimes, but I always feel better after I workout and I"m never sorry that I did it~its just the getting started that's rough sometimes. Logging your food is great~I know that helps me so much every day!!!! Good Luck and keep us posted on how things are going for you!!!

 The biggest step is admitting that you need support.  I am a a little over 5 years out from WLS and just came back to this site on Tuesday.  It really has helped me so much.  

I had originally lost 130 lbs, but had regained 50 lbs and decided I needed help and everyone here has been wonderfully supportive.  Sometimes just knowing you're not alone in your struggle can get you through so much.

Someone suggested the 5 day pouch test to me on Tuesday morning and I googled it (had been so long since I'd been here, I'd never heard of it).  Well, I'm on my 4th day today and have lost 8 lbs. More importantly, I feel that I am learning again to feel the way I felt after my surgery.  It's not too late for any of us.  We just have to be willing to take that first step.

I have been on this site reading posts, sending messages, looking for motivation in before and after pictures and logging on whenever I feel that I want some support.  Ok, it's been a lot since Tuesday, but if I'm here, I'm getting support and not filling my face.

If you want to try to do this together, I'm here for you.  The important thing is you want to try.  You already know you can succeed.  You have.  Keep believing in yourself and fight the negative demons that are always waiting to attack.  

Good luck and keep us posted.

Baby steps:

1) go grocery shopping and have all the right foods on hand. You know what they are low carb, high protein etc.

2) get rid of the bad stuff in the house.

3) schedule and plan your meals.

4) get the carbs out of your diet because they zap your energy and never fill you up.

5) Take a walk. Put your daughter in a stroller and go. The weather is probably nice enough right now.

Five simple steps to start. Every day try to be a little bit better. Most important don't beat your self up for a set back!

Even the most skinniest or most successful patients don't have 100% control all the time - They just try to do a personal best.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

Heidi

Hang in there girl, you are in the right place where you will get the support and understanding from those of us truly understand where you are coming from.  Allot has happened in your life in the past couple of years, which can definitely shift our thoughts away from us personally.  It's only natural for a woman to nurture and take care of others before ourselves.  You know what, it's time to take care of you; find a way to do it for you, you deserve it.

Please let us know how you are doing.

I too have gained too much weight back and need to get back on track.  I am 3 1/2 years post op and at my lowest was at 185 lbs.  I maintained 196 lbs for almost 1 1/2 years and was very comfortable in my 14/16's.  I guess I was too comfortable and life took over and now I am back up at 236 lbs and hating my size 18/20's.  My best friend and I are walking and have a little contest going to try to lose 15 lbs by November.  She is not a RNY patient so it will be harder for her than me to lose this weight but if i don't get back in the correct mind set I won't lose it either.  I am thinking about doing the 5 day pouch test to kick start my pouch and my mind again.  I need to do this as the more time I spend at this weight the more depressed I get and when I get depressed I eat!  I decided today to come back to this site and read the posts and get some encouragement. 

I am here to support and gain support and will keep checking back and posting how I make out.

Good luck,

Kim