self destructive behavior - am i "better enough"?

I know what you mean. I didn't discover until I was about 2yrs post op that I needed to find a therapist that specialized in eating disorders. I am definitely an emotional eater and I often turned to those bad carbs when under stress. After going thru some therapy, I do much better now~I don't always win, but I don't always lose the battle anymore either! For me, just being "better enough" wasn't good enough~I'm a perfectionist type by nature, but I truly want to be a long term success story and the thought of regaining the weight I fought so hard to lose just isn't an option that I'm willing to think about. Now that's not to say that I'm perfect by any means, but I try to keep control of things and if I see myself on that slippery slope again I have to take the time to re-evalute everything (food, exercise, etc) and get myself back on track. Alot of it is mindset for me~mind over matter.

thanks tracy it is definitely mind over matter i did some therapy preop in preparation  i dont necessarily think it is an emotional thing for me  though i might be wrong i just like eating crap i dont know why i let myself but, since posting this yesterday - i have done better today kf