How do I start over?

Both VitaLady and MichDeb brought up some good points as well as solid suggestions.   My liquid protien of choice is the Nectar Iced Tea - I have it every day with my vitamins and other required meds.  Tonight I went to the grocery store and got sliced oven-roasted turkey (no honey smoked sugary stuff), some havarti cheese, decent wheat bread and nectarines.  I also got some yogurt cups and 100 calorie packs.  I plan to take that to work and have it on hand for lunch and the afternoon slump.  VitaLady reminded me that it doesn't have to be big efforts to eat right.  Deb, you are right - thinness does not take away issues.  That saying ended up being true!

I am trying to fight my depression that has resulted from all of this and it helps to know that there are kind folks like all of you that responded so kindly.  I am definitely going to look for the Wagons Ho! posts!  As much as I don't want to be social or part of a group, it is probably what would kick-start me.  95% of me wants to hide away with a TV and a comforter! The good news is that I got my six month blood test back and for the first time since surgery, I am not anemic!  So something is working! Thank you all so much! 

Good for you, kk, it sounds like you have an action plan that is doable.  I can spout some great advice, but, boy, life is really hard some days.  An interesting side note about depression, I developed seasonal affective disorder (winter depression) after I moved to Michigan.  Southeast Michigan is one of the grayest, dreariest parts of the country imaginable in winter.  We can go weeks without seeing the sun.  It has to do with all the Great Lakes surrounding us, and cloud cover.  Once I knew I had it, I took prozac every winter for about 7 years.  The first winter postop, my SAD never showed up on my doorstep.  My surgeon couldn't explain why I didn't have the seasonal depression anymore, Michigan was just as gray, but I am so grateful for it's disappearing.  I still have many episodes of situational depression, from life's difficulties, but haven't needed any medication. Moving back to Colorado would eliminate all of my problems,   I lived in CO in the late 70's and worked at the hospital in Longmont.  It is still my most favorite place to live.  I went back last summer for a visit, for the first time in 27 years.  I couldn't even find the hospital, the area had grown so much. If you haven't tried the Greek Fage yogurt, you should give it a try.  I add my own fresh fruit, and it is so good, I don't eat any other yogurt now.  I have complete control over the Splenda in it, and it is really thick and rich. Good luck to you, day by day. Deb

Just remember that even Nectar tea has caffeine and cancels iron.