Accountability - Monday

I think after everything heals...You should have befores and afters so you can see the difference..I don't know why it matters but before and after pictures just facinate me. I show people my befores and they don't remember me looking like that., truthfully, I can barely remember it either and it was just a couple years ago.  If you have cousins in Montana, we're probably related...My family has been there since 1876 so I think everyone there is my cousin..LOL

Sher, Good luck with your upcoming surgeries! You must be excited and nervous at the same time!  I hope that all goes well and you end up with a svelte (Rather than swelled) body!  Let us know how that all goes!   I read this thread everyday, even though I don't have time to do my own journal everyday....so I sure appreciate Dawn taking it over for Carla too...(Miss that lady!)  Sometimes you really do need a break from journaling, at least I do...It lets me trust myself a little more to live a "normal life"  at a "normal size" without all the obsessing and worrying that I can't eat right without adding calories up daily....I think worrying about gaining (which is what i do often lately) is so unhealthy for me personally....I lose confidence in myself and second guess the last four years that I had great success.  I have to learn to trust myself and trust that even when I don't make all the right choices, that I do MOST of the time and that's what matters. It seems the harder I try for perfection, the harder it gets for me to not cheat myself!  Crazy huh?  So you just keep it up and trust in yourself. Again, I'll be sending you  hopes and wishes... for a speedy recovery and great bod! LOL Hugs Anita 

Thanks for the well wishes Anita. Yes I am excited and nervous too. I am trying to relax a bit and not journal all the time. Not that I won't be aware of what I am eating , just want to see if what I have been doing has finally become automatic and I can keep track in my head what I have eaten. I do want to feel "normal". But I will weigh myself daily so if I see the scale move the wrong way and it stays that way for a week I can make some adjustments and make it go back down.

Thanks again

Sher