Dramatic? Maybe, Effective? Yes!

So.. I went extreme and had my husband put a lock on my fridge and pantry.  Remember the first week after surgery when you could not eat? I had major withdrawels, I was sad, upset, frustrated when people ate around me.. I really mourned the loss of my best friend, I even had nightmares about food!!! About how my whole family came over to my house and had a big pot luck of all my favorite foods spread out and sat there and ate it all in front of me while I couldn't have a bite.. I was woken up by the sound of my  nephews voice saying to my sister "mommy, why is Leslee crying? She's sleeping, why is she crying"... YES I even cried in my sleep about this! So.. it was a mournful experience losing my best friend, and I regret to say..I found it again!! As my earlier post said I've struggled with night time eating, day time snacking and drinking to excess.. So I not only found my old best friend of food again, but I found a new friend, Mr Vodka. Along with these new friends I've also found 35 lbs! SO I'm losing them again.... I went down stairs after working upstairs for a while, I was gonna go eat something..and sure enough just as I had asked, my husband locked up the fridge and pantry after dinner...I actually hadn't had my dinner yet, but I have protein drinks and water in my little fridge upstairs..so I drank that for dinner. My plan is to have breakfast with my husband, have him lock it while he's at work and I'm home, and I'll have a protein shake and water during the day, then we'll eat dinner together, then I'll have him lock it up during the night...this will keep me away from Mr vodka also, cause I won't make a mixed drink without ice. it's already worked.. two things have happened, I felt a sense of relief when I couldn't get into the fridge, because I no longer had to use willpower to resist, food just wasn't available..but I also felt a sadness, similar to right after the surgery....kinda like "what do I do if I can't eat?" imagine I find something ELSE to do! So if this is what it's going to take to break me off from these new found friends, then so be it! Thought I'd share lol sometimes it takes going extreme to get the results you want. This won't be for forever, just till I break these habits and can live more normaly again.

Sounds like a good idea!  But how do you lock the fridge? Michele

Well my fridge and freezer is the side by side kind so the handles are next to each other, we just put a chain and a lock around it LOL I think it's funny..but I think it's what I need for a little while...ya know till I start seeing the scales going down again. So it locks up the freezer and fridge at the same time, which keeps me from getting ice cubes, and I'm not going to make myself a mixed drink without ice..so it keeps me from all the mindless snacking and excessive drinking I started up with.

That is drastic, but I'm glad you found something that works for you!!! I too remember that mourning phases right after surgery. I thought I would NEVER be able to eat pizza again and it seemed like every commercial on tv was for Pizza Hut, Little Caesars, etc~that drove me crazy!!!! Of course now I know I can eat pizza with no problem~urgh!

Leslee, So true...you have to do what works. If you have to do that for a short period of time, it seems reasonable to me. Once the scale gets moving again you will likely be motivated. I'd still recomment that you eventually try to regain the willpower on your own. I think for your longterm success, you will need to focus on that eventually. It is so good that you are not turning to alcohol anymore. I have to say that the buzz from a couple of wine coolers sends me into happy land. What I have learned on OH and the transfer addiction has helped me be sure to keep this in check. I can easily see how people can become alcoholics after they don't have food to lean on. Best wishes to you...keep up the great work. John

Awesome idea. It would be comforting to know that you can't. It takes the temptation away completely.

Good work!

funny story ! glad its working for you ....  ya know what they say  21 days to break the habit!  BUT You need to share this with Dr Buddy !  You can also get fridge locks in Childrens dept at Wal- Mart !!

Who is Dr Buddy?... and the child lock would be a good idea, but I agree with a post a few posts up, that yes I need to regain that "willpower" on my own...but I'm just hoping this will help me break a  habit/create a new habit.

Dr Messner at Dr Blackstones office .  who did your Psych eval?  Dr Buddy Messner is the really  young hot  shrinkie dink .. Super funny and Nice!  Nice to look at too !  Do you go to anyof the support groups ?

Oh yes... he is VERY cute! I remember, I just didn't remember his first name. I'm always working the night of the support groups, I'm sure they would have been/would be helpful.