FRIDAY WEIGH IN!

How is everyone doing? Well, it's that time again, to check in before the weekend. They (who is THEY anyway?) recommend that we weigh only once a week or we'd get obesessed (raises hand here.) so this is our chance to weigh in and compare ourselves to last week and see if we're headed in a HEALTHY direction.  For me, that's up. Where are you headed and how is your ship progressing? Last week: 122.4 This week: 123.4 Now a bigger number. I have all weekend to wrap my head around that and maybe accept it..Hopefully accept it. And just to remind you, NO ONE IS A FAILURE..We detour once in a while and get back on the right trail but we are NOT failures..The best thing we can do for eachother is encourage..ENCOURAGE YOURSELF this weekend...

RNY 9-05-05          HIGHEST 373      CURRENT     195                                 GOAL    175                             TWO PREGANCIES HINDERED MY PROGRESS TRYING TO GET BACK ON THE WAGON!!!!!!!!!!!!!   HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Well, we applaud your success! That's (counts on fingers) almost half what your highest weight was...And you're only 20 pounds from goal. Definately do-able.. Glad to have you checking in!  Dawn

Define same???  Lots of things changed.  I find myself alot less confindent about myself.  At 350 plus i thought i was the hottest thing.  lol  Much smalller now i am shy and low self esteem.

I'm not the same since surgery. Not the same since I reached my goal. Just not the same on the inside or the outside. Before I used to fade into the background and work hard to get people to notice me. I used to bring attention to myself in odd ways..More or less faking that I thought I was hot stuff but I sure wasn't. I couldn't look myself in the mirror in the morning and see one single good thing in that mirror. So when I show people my before pictures, they say: I didn't know you were that big. How can that be? Are they all blind? Well, yes and no...Yes they turned a blind eye to how big I was and no...They knew me but just chose not to see me for what I was. Morbidly obese.  I have to work on that now. Not disliking myself since surgery. If I dislike myself, I'll do horrible things to myself like over eat, eat the wrong things...Basically self sabotage. Loving myself is a lot of work... Now people do see me. I know they see me because now men hold open doors for me. It's a new and strange "power" that I have now. I have pledged to use it for good, guys, so no worries there... Hard to explain but I'm not that person who walked into surgery on July 11, 2006...I'm half the person I was in July 2005...

Ok.. so its running again.. i am gonna kill my internet people.. they were outside all day working on it  So here is mine Last week 120 This week 121. still right in there. Carla

You gained a pound too! too much worrying over the internet and the computer...Too much sitting and waiting for both, I would guess...I hope you're back up and running smooth again. I sure hate to be without the internet...I'm not sure what I'm going to do on vacation. Driving across country without  a lap top...I may just freak out and buy one before I leave!

Hey look at you.. another pound.. whoo hoo. doing good girl Carla

Thanks...Is there such a thing and head ANTI-hunger? I don't want to eat today. it could be that darned number again but I'm fighting it.  Off to go snack on something...

Start: 235 Last week: 129 This week: 133 Just tryin to maintain that 128-134. I'm finding my head has been leading me astray every now and then.  Then again I'm toning and working on gaining back some muscle. Troy