I've had a difficult day today. For example, you're eating at a friend's house or a restaurant and you decide what to eat; your decision is made and you proceed. At work, it's another story. You say no once, but then it is EXPOSED to you all throughout the day: gourmet huge cookies, a variety of nutbreads, pastries from a fantastic French bakery, homemade muffins, donuts, Godiva chocolates - and that's just today! Incredibly tempting. I kept telling myself - just for today - and - what do you want for yourself? How do you want to take care of yourself? What ACTION will bring you closer to living a healthier, more fulfilling life? I stayed away from it all. I'm not hungry now, but I want to eat. I did treat myself with 70 calories of sugar free fudsicles and popsicles.
I'm 3 years out. Lost too much weight, went into kidney failure, electrolyte imbalance, and several vitamin deficiencies. Needed to regain a LITTLE bit of weight and I went from being strictly compliant with a WLS diet to slowing reestablishing my pre-op patterns. My BMI is currently 30. My doctor feels an appropriate level is 23, especially with all the extra skin I'm carrying.
I feel like a pendulum. Swung too far on each side, and am now working to normalize everything, knowing that this is for life. Hard lessons, but unfortunately, has been necessary for my personal journey.
OK, this is what I've eaten today.
2 mozzerella cheese sticks, large orange
pork roast, green beans, noodles w/ sauce
carrots, South Beach protein breakfast bar
2 sugar free popsicles, 2 sugar free fudgsicle
spinach, romaine lettuce, sliced mushrooms, chopped tomatoe, diced roasted chicken breast (no skin), Free ranch dressing
TOTALS:
Calories - 1092
protein - 108
carbs - 96
fat - 33