You have no idea how glad I am that I am not alone...

I had Gastric RNY in March of 2005.  I started at 240 and got down to 143 (my lowest).  Anyhow, I maintained around that weight, never really going above 150.  Never in my life did I think I would get to the point where people would tell me I looked sick because I was too skinny (143lbs).  Anyway, I got pregnant with my second child at 150 and when I delievered in June 07 I think I was around 172.  Now my daughter is 10.5 months old and the scale lingers around 166 - 169.  Believe me I am happy it's not lingering around 250 anymore!  But anyway, I read some posts on here and am SO happy I am not the only one struggling.  I can't lose these last 17 lbs. but of course I eat crap all day!!!  I have to get back in the mindset and I just find it so hard this time.  I think back to the morning I was going in for surgery and I want to cry.  I knew when i came home, everything was going to be different and I did great.  How come I can't think like that again??  Nothing really makes me dump, except maybe things made with brown sugar/molasses.  But I don't want to fail at this.  I feel so guilty that I put myself through this major elective surgery, and believe me I am not sorry in the least, but now am I going to screw this up too?  My best friend also had it done, so we were thinking of starting the 5dpt tomorrow.  I didn't really have a question, I just did some venting and tell you that it's so nice to know there ARE others like myself!  Sometimes we just need the right motivation....how come I can't get in my head that I'm worth the effort??

Oh but you are worth the effort. Think about your baby. You wanna be there for her graduation, right? And you wanna be a gramma, right? Extra weight could keep you from that. Not that 17 pounds is going to kill you but you wanna look good in the new dress for your daughter's wedding...I';m just sayin.. My daughter is getting married in October so I'm all about the wedding AND GRAND KIDS...LOL

Hi there,  I am in the same boat as you...but do keep in mind the body takes a good year to adjust after child birth so be kind to yourself.  I too can eat crap all day, but I swear to you that starting yesterday I went back to protien shakes and cheese sticks and cut out the sweets and have limited my coffee and very little diet soda like a few sips before bed to take some meds and I actually feel much better...I am going to do the 5dpt starting on Monday I need to read the plan and stock up on what I need this weekend, I do not want to fall into a trap of being ill prepared.   Good luck to you! Melissa

Hi, it's a funny thing you replied to my post because i read one of yours and I thought to myself that you sounded like you were going through exactly what i was going through.....thanks for the support. Stephanie

You are soooooooo not alone sister!! I too am struggling to get off that last bit of weight, and although I just had a baby 5 months ago, this last bit is sadly NOT from her (more likely they are the result of cheese, many glasses of wine, and pasta with garlic butter-and cheese!)!, as I had gained it well before pregnancy. I too have no problem eating crap (though I don't care much for sweets/processed junk... I like "good" food made as fattening as possible... think alfredo with fresh shellfish and wilted spinach... go figure!), and ironically the ONLY time I have dumped EVER in the last 6+ years is while I was pregnant! It certainly makes it tough to know when to quit... This February I decided enough was enough and I had to do something to get it back under control (I knew I could lose 20lbs... but I didn't want to ever be in the position again where I had so much to lose that it was overwhelming), and so I decided that I would eat no more than 1000 calories a day if I could avoid it and that I would catalogue every last bite or sip on paper. What I found out is that I ate waaaaaaaaaaaay more than I realized because I was just not paying attention; I found out that I also took in A LOT of extra calories by lingering over my plate waiting for space to open up for those "last 4-10 bites" that were so delicious because the food TASTED good, not because I was hungry, and that sometimes when I was snacking, I was bored and wanted to eat something exciting. I also found out that I CAN LOSE the weight if I changed that pattern and just became aware enough to make a conscious decision about whether I wanted to lose weight more than maybe I want that second drink or extra cheese... but sadly I've had to say no to the food that tastes so good more often than not unless I can feel real hunger, and then I serve myself a 1/2 cup portion and go from there. I don't really miss anything because the decision is mine... if I want to eat something, I do... period, end of story... and truth be told, I make a lot more "crap" choices than most of us would confess to, but I'm pretty loyal about the calories. Also helpful: I remove my plate after 10-15 minutes to eliminate "picking"... So far I've lost 33lbs! I still have 10 more or so I'd like to lose, and so I'm still working at it. If it takes me some time, so be it... I remember wanting to KILL people who complained about having to lose under 25lbs... thinking to myself "I could lose 20lbs all day long!... WHAT are they WHINING about?!?!?!?... guess Mom was right after all about judging...Best of luck to you, hope any of this is helpful!!... Martha