Why do you need to look so good? For WHAT??

Every few weeks I repeat this quote in my blog, but it is especially important at this part of my journey.  People tell me--"you look great, you don't need plastic surgery." "why do you want to make yourself so perfect, what are you going to do with yourself once you have your perfect self?"  My answer is simple (but I keep it to myself) "I am going to SHINE!! I am going to look at myself and say wow! I am going to smile even bigger every morning! I am going to prance around in a little bikini because it will make me feel free and great. I will feel even more confident--THAT'S what I'm going to do!!!" Why shouldn't I?? Okay--here's the quote again-- "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"  --Actually, who are you not to be?-- You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” by Marianne Williamson My outer light will totally be able to reflect my inner light--wow! Yesterday was my pre-op appointment. I had to hear about the yucky drains and how I have to measure the liquid twice a day and wear a scuba-type of cat suit 24/7. My husband said that if it were EASY, everyone would do it. Gastric Bypass Surgery sure wasn't easy and Plastic Surgery won't be either--but I am SO DETERMINED to go through whatever it takes to be ALL that I can be. I know I will do a lot of whining after the surgery, but I know I have obesityhelp.com and you guys can handle it! I know that with G-d, my husband, my family, and this support board I can get through anything! Without my husband, Steve, I'm not sure if I could even do it. The whole thing will be harder for him than for me. Even my wls was harder for him than for me. He's so good to me and our kids that I can't even begin to tell you. I KNOW I can do this because of him!

Hey Jill~ GREAT POST!!! Thank you. Can you cite the quote?  I'd love to know who wrote/said this... I'm TOTALLY printing it and putting it in my little journal. What a great reminder for us. And you are right...You WILL get through this next surgery and I cannot wait to see ya prancing in that bikini-- YOU GO GIRL!!! Blessings, Katrina

thanks Katrina! i just edited my post to add the person who wrote the quote's name! I can't believe I left it out--I was cutting and pasting! It's by Marianne Williamson Love, Jill

What an insightful  post. I can relate to much of what was said. I have found myself shrinking so that others around me won't feel insecure~why do I do that?? why should I have to feel that way? At least this made me think about it so maybe I can come up with some answers! I wish you all the happiness in the world as you begin your journey!!!! Congratulations!

Thanks! I know what you mean--it's like hiding yourself. You don't want to look too good or wear the cutest clothes, because then what if other people don't look so good or have such cute clothes on--you don't want to make them feel bad, right? But on the other hand if you're out like a sexy mamma, you're shining and you're giving power to other people to do the same thing.

great post jill!! thanks, jacki