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i have to say i'm so glad i posted this.  it's so much easier for me to listen and talk to u guys.  i am restrictive with food.  i dont always eat as much as i should.  i'm really struggling with my home life right now which doesnt help and i was recently diagnosed with IBS and a lot of foods bother me.   today is a new day and i'm going to try to be kind to myself.

yup....you are more special than you know!  Good choice.....do some nice things for you! hugs, Tami

Micha, sorry you are having family issues, I pray it all resolves soon for you.  Life changes can definitely throw us into a spin......just remember to stay healthy you need to be good to yourself.

OMG - it's like you're me in another body. We have the same history with enormous weight loss & regain, and I have people tell me every day they're worried because I look so skinny. My daughter nearly started crying today, telling me that her boyfriend is worried about my "problem" - I said "my what?" What problem? "Oh, everybody thinks you're anorexic." I was reading a book I bought, Eat This, Not That, and she was telling me I'm so obsessed and I exercise way too much. I told her my BMI is perfect, right in the mid-range of normal, but truthfully if I had PS and got rid of this skin, I'd be a few pounds underweight. I bought a size 2 skirt the other day and I'll have to take up the waist. I don't see myself as overweight anymore, but too skinny? WTH? How can that be? Does that mean I'm supposed to (1) stop exercising, and (2) eat unhealthy things in large amounts that will probably (a) make me sick and (b) bring back the diabetes and all the other stuff I fought so hard to get rid of? I mean, what are we supposed to do? I'm 18 months out and may have the dreaded rebound any time now, and I keep telling these well-wishers that I've bottomed out and I'll get some of my weight back.  I really eat a lot of things that aren't good choices (fried, carbs, etc.) But I will sh** myself if I see the scales start to go up and I can't control it. One thing that does make me worry, and tell me if this has happened to you, I used to look at certain women and wish I could look like them, and now anybody that is any bigger than I am looks fat to me. I mean, a size 10 woman would look heavy to me now, and that worries me a little bit. I looked at 1000's of profile pictures before my RNY and a lot of the women got too skinny, and would be grinning like they thought they looked really good, and I'd wonder why they couldn't have stopped losing 30 pounds before they did. I think a lot of people are wondering that about me, because when I see pictures of myself at 155 (about 30 pounds heavier than I am now), I looked OK. But I cannot imagine trying to gain 30 pounds. That's something I never thought I'd have to think about. Thank you for your post and to all those who try to help - it feels good to know people understand.

yup, we're living the same life.  i do eat fried carbs too lol, they dont seem to effect my weight, i'm sure partly because i dont eat huge portions.  my bmi is 21.5.  the surgeon said i prolly have 12 lbs of extra skin (mostly on my legs). so now my family is trying to say i really weigh like 117.  whatever the hell that means........ i was really starting to feel confident about how i look and i still think i look pretty good, at least with clothes on lol..........