I gained control again (vent - sorry so long)

Man, it's so good to know I'm not by myself!!!  We will get through this time - just remember the meaning of Christmas and enjoy yourself.  After the holidays I'm sure there will be alot of people "banding" together on here for support and maybe some goal setting.  Have a great holiday and thanks so much for posting!

Hey Niecey and Everyone: I am continually amazed that when I log onto this site, I ALWAYS just gravitate towards something I need to hear. I have been feeling the exact same way, very disgusted with myself at the moment, but stressed to the breaking point and going back to my old friend food to help. I know what I have to do to get back on track.  I sometimes just appreciate not feeling like such a freak and so alone.  I was walking around this morning and someone complimented me on how nice I look and I was thinking what a fraud I was since I have been eating nothing but crappy carbs! Of course I said thank-you....and walked away almost teary eyed.  Geesh! Hugs and thanks to all of you....you are all very special to me! Cindy 309/150/156 highest/goal/current