I gained control again (vent - sorry so long)

I just finished 2 days of the 5 DPT.   It was difficult because I let myself slip back into my old habits during the holidays.  The old habits really snuck up on me and I was too busy to pay attention to it (or am just so used to those habits for 40 years that it felt like a normal progression to me).  I was eating sweets every afternoon around 3 or 3:30 at my desk (my danger time) or would graze and have bites of every sweet concoction a vendor brought to work and felt like I "blew it" so wouldn't even monitor my choices at dinner to be sure they were healthy choices. I do dump but have figured out how to just have a little at a time so I won't get too sick. Anyway, didn't know if anyone else out there was struggling with this so wanted to put it out there for support.  I have years of disordered eating (for comfort, boredom, etc.) and of course am still trying to overcome that.  BUT, the important thing is that I am AWARE.  I WILL NOT put my head in the sand this time and not pay attention.  I have come too far and am worth too much to have to use food to make me feel good. Thanks for being there for my "true confession".  I just had to get this out there.  I can put it out there now that I feel in control - I felt too vulnerable to even discuss when I was in the throes of unplanned/unconscious eating.  Have a fantastic day. TGIF!

Oh Denise I so understand!!!! It is such a struggle most days and honestly, its exhausting!!! But, its well worth it!! I too keep going back to the 5dpt or parts of it when I get off track and believe me, I'm already planning on needing to do it all over again Jan 2nd!!!! At least I know in my head that I have that to fall back on  and that it works for me. Congrats to you for being diligent and staying on top of things. You are such a success and inspiration to us all! Hope you have a wonderful holiday season!

You are wise and such an inspiration to me also!!!  I'm so glad we have each other - people that understand. Have a blessed season!!!

Denise, I am with you this holiday season is such a struggle and there is food everywhere, everyday at work.  I've even gotten sick at work by over doing.  I don't usually dump but to much does cause me some nausea.  I know I need to do it and like Tracy come January 2nd will definitely kick it is big time.  Right now I just want to get by the holidays and not do too much damage, I am weighing everyday and each day I sent my limits by the scale (not good but it is what it is). Congrats on realizing your danger zone and taking control.

Congrats to you for weighing every day!!!  I know I used to choose NOT to weigh purposely because I didn't want to know.  I think that is a tool that can be extremely helpful especially this time of year - keeps you in check DAILY!!! Good for you!!!  Keep it up - you'll do fine

I am having a awful time with the holidays. Seeing how we celebrate. Hanaika(sp),, Saint Nick days, Xmas, New Years, Plus in the month of dec we have my husbands birthday, my mother birthday and four of my best friends birthdays. Plus after the first of the year we celebrate Russian xmas. Thank god for my scale and being able to use it four times a day. O and we must not forget all the xmas parlies . That I have at my work place. The other nite I was so bad that. I broke out in welts and lite headed due to all of the sugar. But I am thank ful for seeing this month as a big issue. Maybe that why I am turning into a exercise ***** To work off all of the junk food. That I had eaten for the month. Which is very bad for me seeing how any other time I can stay away from all of the sugar and junk food. I wish all of you the best during this time of the month. I will be right along the side of you when it . Comes to the five day pouch test Taichi.

Thanks for the reply.  It really helps to know we are not alone!!  You can do it and will be fine!!!!  Hang in there taichi.

This is my first year after my surgery to be in the holiday season. Last year I had only been 7 months out so I as a new bee... Now after one year I can eat more than I did last year, and I do fine myself wanting the sweets more. I know that I really do have to be careful and continue to exercise. I do enjoy the workout, and I do weight myself everyday.  Thank goodness for the scale, because it keeps me on track.   Regressing is constantly on my mind, that is why I will continue to work not to loose control because i don't want to go back to where I started from. I can't afford to loose control.

Thanks for being here.  I can use the support this Holiday Season

Hey Rhonda!  We are a month apart in our surg dates.  Yes, last year I had absolutely no issue with the holidays and to be honest it was such a relief (only 8 months out).  The relief was from knowing my choices were already made for me - I absolutely was unable to eat any sweets.  Now that I can "participate" in making the food choices I'm struggling.  But, struggling makes us stronger, right?  And it sure is worth it when I pass up lots of goodies at an event and feel so good and strong about myself. happy holidays.  thanks for responding

I had surgery right around the same time as you, and am going through the same things. I dont dump on anything and was making cookies yesterday and ate about 4. I was up 3 pounds today, hopefully its temporary. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up Jan 2. The next 2 weeks are going to be full of partys and get togethers. I am struggling with being able to eat more than last year at this time. I keep thinking " I can have a little of this and a little of that" but it all adds up, I wish the honeymoon stage lasted forever after WLS. I think before durgery we all thought that way but reality sets in, and the struggle begins. Some days I feel like I never had surgery, until I look in the mirror. Im so glad to have all the support of all of you, Im on here everyday. Debra