I think I may be going insane..

I really don't have any advice...but wanted to give you a HUG....I'll be hoping that everything evens out for you...Dede

Jess: So sorry you are going through all this. I'm 9 months out from RNY and doing OK. Also, have been on various anti-depressants for years after being diagnosed with clinical depression. So, I've taken the meds before and after surgery.

You might want to consider being screened by a professional - my PCP did screening - and take it from there. It sounds like you are in agony (I understand about wanting to hide under the bed) and hopefully, you can find someone to help you.

Hugs and blessings,
Rudie2

I agree with what Kay said also, Jess.  Bottom line--only you can decide when you're going to see someone for med evaluation or therapy.  Both work together so well if they are needed.  Yes, speaking from my experience.  Mental health is not a moral issue any more than addiction is. Meds are so tough....you take them, feel better, and then wonder, "Maybe I'm ok now, and don't need them" sometimes.  But, they are part of what balanced my moods....so stopping them wouldn't keep me feeling good!  =)  I really try to remember that if I was diabetic, I would take my insulin or prescribed medication. If you need these meds, they will work if you get the right one, at the right dose.   Listen to your heart.  I can tell you are an insightful, wise, wonderful woman. Trust yourself, and know that the same courage it took to bring you to this point in your quest for health will get you through the rest of your challenges.  You are not alone.  Keep talking to people who have walked in your shoes in regards to depression/anxiety.  They get it like nobody else can.  Sharing experience is very healing. Beth

Thank you Beth. I am so thankful to people like yourself and others on this board who offer such excellent support and wisdom. As you said, no one gets it like someone who has been there. :) I have already called my therapist, have my meds ready to restart and a regime of sessions to go to. Thanks so much. - Jess

I'm always here...anytime.  You go girl!  Way to take care of you! Beth  =)

I'm glad you're getting the help you need. My pre-WLS counseling went into detail about depression after surgery, that it's very common. We tend to think if we aren't so heavy our lives will be perfect and all our problems will go away, but a lot of them still hang around. I think a lot of us go through what you're feeling. I hope you'll post and say how you're doing.

Thanks Wanda, I know what you are saying..and I am guilty of feeling that way

HI Jess! (((((((((HUGS))))))))))) I think we all tend to have some reaction to losing weight so rapidly~it changes our physical makeup to such a huge degree so quickly! I am so sorry you're feeling this way. I think talking to your PCP, surgeon and/or a therapist is a good idea. They can guide you and get you on some meds that will help. Right after surgery I had severe anxiety and panic attacks and had to go on meds~they REALLY helped alot and I don't know how I could have made it without them. Now things have calmed down a bit~I still have anxiety to a degree but its manageable. I have now found that my OCD is worse, but I'm dealing with it thru therapy. Just know that you're not alone and we're all here anytime you need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to vent to! Please let us know how things are going for you!

Tracy, I see you on here, and you are always so bright and cheerful, and beautiful to boot. :) Thank you for your words..I feel so much better than I did when I first posted..just knowing I am not alone in this...and i'm so thankful I did not listen to my urge to "run away" and istead faced this head on. Thank you so much..and may I return the ((HUG)). Jess  P.S. Thank you to everyone here..I love this graduate board.. the folks here offer so much support than any other board I've ever been on.  Thanks and bless you all.  Jess

Hi Jess, I attempted to go off my anti-depressants prior to surgery and my surgeon put me right back on them.  I have to say that without my drugs I don't think I would have made it this far and been as successful as I have.  Whether is depression or anxiety, get to your doctor and get some help.  It will work given some time.  My counselor explained it to me this way:  there are nerve endings in our brains that have to communicate with each other and sometimes for some people those nerve endings can't communicate anymore.  That's where the term "nervous breakdown "came from.  She explained that there isn't anything wrong with medication to help fix the problem.  If you broke your arm, wouldn't you get it fixed?  So what if you have to take drugs?  My little pink capsule everyday keeps me sane and happy.  I don't feel drugged all the time and I don't feel like my emotions are shut off.  It just keeps me even.  There are more people than you think that need a little help from medication and there is no shame in it.  Mental health is just as important as our physical health.  When one suffers, the other has to suffer to a certain extent.  Talk to your doctor and get some help.  You don't have to stay on them forever if you and your doctor agree.   As to your PS.  I think you need to address this more aggressively.  this isn't something you can just ride through.  You talk about leaving the people you love.  I was at goal 11 months out from surgery and am now 18 most post op.  My doctor said it was normal.  Take care and good luck. Kim