Why I Eat

Hey guys. Been trying to get to the bottom of why I'm having so much trouble with my eating lately. (Binge and purge cycle, why do I sabotage, etc etc). So, yesterday I made a list of all the things about me that make me eat at one time or another and it was amazingly freeing. I have real trouble being honest with myself about my eating problems (and everything else too), But, anyway, I decided a really good step for myself would be to put my list out there to maybe help other people to do the same. I have been inspired so many times by the courage of people on here, and I need to learn to do the same. To be an example, not one of those people who say I lost it, it was easy and I don't understand why you people struggle (cause there's alot of people around like that). No, I'm human, and out here in Onederland, we struggle too.  So, anyway, check out my list. It's not my newest blog, but the one below it, titled Why I Eat.  Watch out, cause this sucker is a long one!!! (The first one is about the ongoing saga of my relationship, which several people have also been following. lol.) But, anyway, I encourage you to make a list like this. It really put my eating in perspective, and made me realize that I really still have all the issues I had before my surgery and I need to deal with those and NOT just the weight, which is really a byproduct of all those things I used to eat away. Best to you. :) 

I so love your list.. I must admit that some of it was a tad *****illin' to read because I can relate so much.. I'll be thinking about it for a while.. thinking about my own list.. Cheers to your bravery and boldness and your willingness to duke it out for all of us.. so so inspiring.. April R

awww thanks. it was chilling to me to read and be that honest. i'm having a really rough time battling regain and i'm trying hard. thanks for the kind words!

I just read your profile. Some emotional stuff. Made me laugh and made me want to cry. at 51 yr old my issues are different. Budding romances and all of that acient history. The things that touch me are the raw emotions. The highest highs and lowest lows. I know how those feel. someone told me once feelings are not facts. Just feelings. I had to digest it for awhile but today I live by it. I may feel fat or ugly or mean but it does not mean I am. I sometimes feel like a saint , a always loving woman but I am not . I enjoyed your musings. Have fun. Be realistic. Be kind to you. Then you will be a bright light to all. Hugs, laurie

Highs and lows seem to characterize my journey. I've been all over the place, which is why i've had so much trouble with my eating. I'm praying for strength to turn that around. thanks for all that you said. best - jazz