Accountability - What did you eat, Tuesday 5/22?

Good Morning, I'm sitting here sipping my hot chai tea, UMMM it is sooo good, at great way to start the day and soothe the mood, looks like I might be able to see the top of my desk and the bottom of my e-mail before the day is done ... Here's the food, not enough protein, didn't really feel like eating after the gym, then I was walking by the candy dish and picked up 3 peanut M & M's which I promptly popped into my mouth without thinking first, what a mistake  - they just hit me and ...Dumping a great reminder of what not to do, still hits at the oddest times ( I think this is a good thing really) B - 20 oz 1/2 caf sf/ff cinnamon dulce latte with an extra splash of sf caramel S - small banana with 2 tbsp peanutbutter and added fiber L - 1/2 cup chicken salad       on parmasan cheese crisps       snak size sf  double choc pudding D - 1 protein ball S - 1 serving sf mini oatmeal cookies dipped in peanutbutter       those 3 pesky M & M's PLUS - 82.5 oz water/crystal light & 10 oz hot tea TOTALS =     Cals - 1105     Fat - 57     Carbs - 90     Protein - 69 Today is a new day, Today will be better,  I am The Captain, I am The Captain...Alesia

hi alesia, here is wha ti had for tuesday. i think i did well. chili is gone.. it was good...

B- 1 c. oatmeal 1/2 c. 1% milk 2 1/2 T flax seed meal   L-1 c. homemade Chili 1 small Egg boiled  7 baby Carrots, raw 

S- atkins caramel protein bar

D- 1 c. homemade Chili  2 egg whites from small eggs 1 small Cornbread

S- 8 mini fit@active caramel rice cakes 1/2 c. sf lime jello Total  calories 1117, fats 39, carbs 123, protein 72

2 miles on treadmill at home 40 some minutes at the wellness center gym

16 oz def. coffee 16 oz def hot tea 112 oz plain water

 

Hi Anita Girl You got a sexy new photo too...I really need to figure out how to get my pic on here so I can show off my gorgeousness also ... Was the chili good, I love chili and make a huge pot so I have lots to freeze - think it is a great protein choice and of course the pouch likes it too so that helps... I think you had a right fine day, great job ...And awesome on getting in lots of fluids too...

Alesia

 

Hi Alesia, Thanks... Yup i put that photo in today that was taken april 1st. i do have some newest photos from Easter. but they was kind of dark.  if you have photobucket you can add your pics here...  oh yes i always make good chili.....     i dont make it hot.....   hubby and i dont eat hot things...  yes i make a point to get my waters in... i write all my fluids down every day and ussually the time too..  i am holding on for a week and weigh my self next tues... hope it moves more..... Anita

So, i've been doing really bad. Binging and all... but today, I'm going to write what i did yesterday and maybe that will help me be accountable for today. Today is a new day, right??? :) Tuesday: B: instant oatmeal Binge:  3 rice cakes 2 bags pretzels 4 chocolate chip cookies 2 glass chocolate milk (purge) L: lean cuisine Protein bar D: (date) 1/2 small grilled pork chop (very lean, would recommend - Texas Roadhouse), bite of Ryan's baked potato, 1 small chicken strip, few bites salad  Sigh. Ok, guys. Wish me luck. Maybe this will help hold me accountable. After all, there's nothing like the desire to avoid public humiliation (of posting my patheticness on this board), to jog good habits? Today, I'm going to try to do only liquids (slim fast) and protein to try to rid myself of the need for carbs. However, the need to binge is way more difficult to get rid of...  Pray for me, mkay?

Jazz Girl, You've got to find a way to lick that binge/purge thing, that can be really detrimental to your physical and mental health and you did not go thru re-arranging your innards to make yourself sick obsessing...Have you thought about talking to a professional about the emotional issues? That said, and me, being no professional, lets move on to what you ate and being accountable...I really find it vital to be accountable to someone "desire to avoid public humiliation" definately goes a long way...I saw another post recently of a person whose doc put them in a "time out" which was basically returning to a full liquid all protein drink diet for like 2 weeks then meeting back with the doc for another assessment - you should look for this post ( it was probably a week ago?) might be something to consider, should run it by your doc before going all out that long on just liquids though - I personally have done this on a single day basis to get myself back in control...

Was the binge one long graze fest...if so I would suggest to put a big glass of crystal light in your hand or at least drink the milk 1st and than water and then see if you still want to put food in too...I have really noticed that I graze the worst when I have not been drinking enough - I know this is because I still don't always know when my body is saying thirsty vs. hungry, I'm better now than I used to be but still working on this skill and probably part of your urge to keep putting something in your mouth could be satisfied by drinking (just choose water or crystal light to keep the cals and sugar down)... Meal food choices for yesterday seem okay, don't really need to tell you its the "other" stuff you can do without... Keep tracking and posting, I'll be here with you letting it all hang out for the world to see... Alesia

thanks... the reason I'm being so forthright about it is simply because I NEED to make it real to me. I know it's bad. I know it's dangerous and I know it's dumb. And honestly, it doesn't make me lose weight. I makes my stomach go soft and my skin look bad. It makes it hard to hit the gym because I never feel well. I'm working on it hard, but i've always dealt with emotional issues with some sort of eating/control method and it's hard to not do that. this time in my life is tough. thanks for your kind words. I mean that. :)  best to you

you are so funny.. sorry about ur. you will do better today...I added up my calories and OMG! Ive got to do better. i want to maintain not gain, so i think maybe 1500 to 1600 would keep mw where I am, what do u think? so today im going to work harder at keeping that goal.for some reason ive been craving junk this week. and i threw up some yesterday, see when I dont do good food I end up making myself throw up.. mind u it was just a little, but it still happened..here goes S-2 16 oz sf fv nf latte B- pure protien bar S- 2 cups coffee w/ milk, banana L-FREAKIN TACO BELL 3/4 of a nacho supreme S- ANOTHER 16 oz sf fv nf latte D- handful of almonds, 3/4 lays bag sunflower seeds, love the salt 1 glucerna carmel choclate bar S-FREAKIN diritos again 1 serving, ill be glad when those  r gone. see wut i mean to many calories for one day....ug....,oh well, but not oh  well!!!

I might have to start calling you "S S" for sexy Sheila, really love your haircut and photo Have you checked out any sites to help figure out how many cals a day to maintain...I went on one from another posting - you and I are about the same height, I'm 5'4 & 1/2" (yes I count the extra 1/2) and when I plugged in the numbers it said like 1550 to 1800 for me depending on how often I'm getting in exercise, I think this is pretty close, seems like since tracking I'm steady at around 1300-1500 and I'm maintaing pretty well in that range ( scales moves up a little/down a little daily) and I'm not always sure my cals in tracking are right on because I cannot  alway find the specific item in fitday to match what I am really eating and I don't really measure I eyeball for amounts so I could be off, so I really think 1550 is probably about right for me to maintain... Would like to avoid the ...Doesn't happen often these days, which is OK with me, definately not good for the body and soul... Looks like your were craving that tex-mex taste, hence taco bell and doritos, got to watch out for those both way high in cals and carbs that you would be better off getting from more nutricious choices...

Take care - throw away the Dorito snack packs and plan tomorrows food tonight to avoid grabbing bad choices on the go... Alesia

ty for the complement on my pic....made me feel good.. hehe