sometime I hate

I thought my post was truthful.  I also use this board for support, but you have to be living on another planet if you think that everyone on here has a positive perspective on everything. There are people on here that clearly have somatoform personality types - what I was trying to point out is that these are the sort of people that would frequent this support forum.   It gives a rather "slewed" view on the difficulty of having and living with this surgery. ALL of us on here struggle with our weight, but how we express this struggle is what makes us such a rich and varied source of information. However, you DON'T know me, just as I don't know you - so everything that is written on here should NOT be accepted as the absolute truth and we should take responsibility for our own decisions and not base a huge one like this on anonymous people - it doesn't make sense. Have a great day!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAmen.

You read my mind! These thoughts are in my head daily. It is so hard!

I was wondering how much work you have done in therapy or did you just get psych clearance for the surgery.  I did a lot of my work prior to the surgery and continue to need support now, but I am no where near the level of despair you appear to experience. As with any addiction, I ruminate about food and need to keep working on that as well as the guilt.  As far as the body, you are below your goal wt, so I don't quite get the lamentation about that. And excess skin, for me isn't something I obsess about because I am happy enough to look decent in clothes. My husband is not unhappy with my saggy body so that takes some of the pressure off me too, I imagine. I am so happy that I have gained tremendous benefit from having a more normal body. I am wayyyyyyyyyy less self conscious now and that allows me to do more than I did before. I was already a fairly happy, confident, content individual before the surgery. The wt loss helped to improve that, but if I didn't already have it, the wt loss wouldn't make it happen on it's own.

ok, well it's just I was having a bad day. I am not always that negative. I have a problem seeing things in black or white. ( all good or all bad) I had emotional issues before surgery and I am still working on them. Ive been in therapy for several years now. I took a year break after the surgery, but am now in full swing again. Im happy to hear you are doing so well.  We are all different people, and all deal with things in our own ways. I was already seeing a psych before my surgery, so she did my evaluation. believe me when I say, I am way better now than I was before weight loss, in every aspect of my life. This is just a place I have for support when I need it.. Thanks for your concern. I have slept since this post, and every day is a new day. Things are much brighter today than that day was for me.

Well hang in there lady, you are not alone.