Remember me? Taking Stock, Being Accountable

Its been almost a yr since I posted. My weight is up dramtically.  I saw Dr Leitman last friday (only bc my healh insurance was running out and felt as though I needed to see everyone before it did).  I weighed 211.  I was fully clothed and I had just had lunch, so, that was a little more than I normally weigh. I've been weighing in at about 205-208 for about a month or so now (maybe moreor less but I only recently bought a scale).  You see, for the last 6 mos, maybe more, Ive had this attitude that I can do and eat whatever I want.  And I have been.  But, for a while, it didnt affect me, or so I thought.  But, in Januaury, I met a guy and I stoped working out.  I got so busy with him, that I stoped my normal routine.  My drinking has also been on the upswing again, hence the weight gain. Im not happy about all this.  Dr Leitman, didnt seem too worried.  It will be 5yrs in August.  Most people regain 10-20%, so, I dont feel awful and ashamed, but, I dont feel good about it either.  My lowest was right after the LBL when I was 175 or so, but, that was surgery weight loss.  The most accurate weight was 185-189 which I was a comfortable size 10. I was that for a good 3-4 yrs.  Sometime, about a yr ago, I think right before the boob job, I was at like 190 or so, so, in the last yr, Ive gained about 15lbs.  I think it all started last summer when I just let loose. Anyway, what am I going to do about it because it scares the bejesues out of me.  Well, yesterday was my last day of work.  I took the summer off to study for my GMATs.  I want to get my MBA and my job was getting to be such a mind **** that I couldnt do it anymore.  SO, Im taking the summer to (1) study, (2) figure out what I want to do and (3) get my ass and mind in shape. 

Heathercross, Have you been going to support group? I think that would be a good place to start. Go back to the basics and it should all fall in place. Good luck on everything! Diona

Do I go to Support Group?  No.  Ill tell you why...the group at Lenox Hill, the dtrs have gotten so "famous" and busy that they dont even do their own support groups, they are lead by patients.  And the patients they chose are barely a yr out.  There is nothing a newbie can teach me about long term success.  All the old timers stopped going to group.  If I could find a group of people who are 3-4 yrs out, id go, but, anyone less than 2 yrs out, theyve got nothing to tell me or Id want to hear.

I'm sure that with preparing for the GMAT you have more than enough to read, but you might check out "Winning After Losing" by Stacey Halprin and "The Beck Diet Solution."  Both address the mental aspects of both losing and maintaining.  Stacey Halprin had wls 5 years ago and lost over 300 pounds.  Dr. Beck is a cognitive behavioral therapist.   Sometimes weight loss is as much about the mind as it is the stomach! Good luck, Sally

Heather, they may have nothing that you want to hear, BUT............they CAN remind you of WHERE you have been and remind you that you dont EVER want to go back there. I have put on 10 pounds since my surgery and I remember reading LOTS of your posts....you were inspirational........ Screw the hootietoot doctors not doing the meetings - they arent the ones losing the weight. Its the PEOPLE who make support groups..get in there and BRING UP long term..........contact people who WERE in the support group at one time. I know you are in the big city and people have better things to do, but its worth a shot!! Good Luck, Margie

Hi Heather...I remember you!  We started here abut the same time five years ago....I was Linda 1 at that time, for some reason they will not let me access my old account, so unfortunately I can't even copy my old profile.... We are all struggling at this point, I went from diligient to "I went thru hell I will eat what I want!"  I had regained about 30 pounds, but have since dropped 20 again.....my doctors are great, and they have the attitude that if I am happy and healthy, the numbers don't matter....but I FEEL better about myself at under 200 pounds, so that is my only goal.... Take care Linda

Hi Heather!!! I remember you b/c you were so helpful to me at the beginning of my journey! It's great that you get to the take the summer off to figure out what direction you want you life to head in! You already know what to do and I know that you are the type of person that once you set your  mind to something, you will be successful at it! Keep us updated on how things are going.