I AM OUT OF CONTROL

Has anyone regained the weight (more than 20 pounds) and lost.  I'm so at the point of giving up because I was down to 246 not I'm at 282 and at a lost.  If there is anyone  out there who may have fallen off the band wagon but recovered yourself and had success please share, I need some "I did it, you can do it too" motivation (RNY 6/04)

HI I AM NEW HERE. I AM OUT OF CONTROL TOO AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I HAD RNY 12-01. LOST 150 HAD 10 POUNDS TO GOAL. HAD A HISTERCTOMY LAST YEAR. TODAY I AM UP 45 POUNDS AND FEEL SO AWFUL. I CANT STOP EATING.ALL I THINK ABOUT IS WHAT DIET SHOUILD I TRY TODAY. (JUST AS I WOULD DO BEFORE MY GASTRIC BYPASS) I AM OUT OF CONTROOL. PLEASE TELL ME HOW DO I GET BACK ON TRACK? I AM SCARED. I DONT WANT TO GAIN ANY MORE. I WORKED TOO HARD TO LOOSE IT. I AM JUST WORRIED THAT I DISTROYED MY POUCH????

CODY

Hi Cody, the only thing i can do is keep writing about my "out of Control" experience.  It is helping me to get it out of my head.  The more we talk about it the better we might be able to understand it.  The best thing about this site is that tons and tons of people are in the same exact situation.  We all help each other through things like this.  Since I wrote my first post, two days ago.  I havent had a diet coke or grazed.  I know its only 2 days but hell, its better than no days. Keep in touch and keep writing Gina

I am so ashamed to write this but I was just 1 year out in 8/05 and I was 188 pounds in july and now I am 215-220 at night after my day of gorging. I can't eat the amounts of food I used to eat at one sitting but after a couple of minutes or so that food goes down and i start over again finishing the same size plate i used to just in intervals. I am so said and upset with myself I was 276 at my highest weight and 250 something the day of surgery. I am so scared I don't go to the BMI clinic at CCF because how do I explain what is making me eat out of control I can't control it. I am scared I am working out 20 minutes a day or most days but i know that is not enough my breast are getting heavy and i am begining to lose my breath again and take insulin. HOW DOES THIS SPIRAL STOP. We must pray for each other and keep thinking positive. I am said at my set back so soon after my surgery date but I have not given up hope and I will not give up on you, keep your head up and get active to try to make up for some of that extra eating until you get fed up with over eating and replace that bag of pretzels with a five minute walk.

Once i bought the pretzel bag and opened it i ate about 1/4 righ away.  Then i noticed that i was kinda dumping and had some pain.  Dam if i didnt wait 10 min. until the pain went away and then ate some more.  I kept doing this over and over until the dam thing was done.  What the hell is that all about.   The one common statement that keeps popping up is  "I'm Scared"  and it doesnt look that bad when its in the written word.  But let me tell you, I am so frightened to gain back my weight.   I am very "SCARED" too.   Gina