Long time no see on this board...

K i need confession time... Please bear with me. I havent gained or lost wt in months... I am at 190 lbs... During all my PS in 2005 my lowest was 182 lbs... the surgeon told me that bc he submitted my PS things at 190 lbs that i had to gain back to that for the surgery... So i did. He took off a total of 28 lbs of skin... You would thing that bc he did that i would be 178 lbs...NOPE i am still 190 lbs. That erks me... But then its all my fault. I havent been to a gym since 2005 when the PSurgeon told me i had to gain. I have no motivation. I am still in the same sizes of clothes and I look in the mirror and still see a cow... to the point that i put myself down. I dont drink alcohol or pop or sugar or exercise... I have started smoking and i hide that from people, I eat like a cow somedays... and trust me i can put food away. I am scared that when Superman leaves for Iraq in Jan that when he gets back that i will have gained a lot of wt. I have enrolled in college classes for when he is gone. I have tried to get back to the basics... I can do it all but the leaving the house to got to the gym... AND the gym is free!!!!. I dont know if this confession is makin me feel better bc right now i feel like i dont deserve WLS at all or the PS... If you comment on this I am gonna go ahead and say thank you for reading.

Hi, I am sorry to hear that you have gained weight. Now that you comfessed the problem which is half the battle, it is time to get off your butt and do something. If you will read the up date today from cajun girl you will find what she did to loose those pounds that creep back on and you do need to exercise too. Where did the smoking thing come from...you did this to get healthy - I hope. You have to make up your MIND that you will not fail so plan not to fail. We are here to help but the real work begins with you. Good luck and I hope you can get on track with your eating - you still have your tool to work for you now you have to work it for all it's worth. Take care and keep us posted - God bless. deb k

I stoped the gym after year one....at year 3 I started again and am addicted. weight barelly has moved but I feel better & clothes (same size) fit better. Doesnt superman deserve to come home to superwoman???/ I think yes. Come on girl...lets do it together. I am on month 2 of " my get your butt in gear"!!! Diana

This is a hard journey, isn't it? Over the past year I have used short and long term goals to motivate me, and it really helps. Use the period that Superman is away to lose the weight -- surprise him when he gets back. Focus on that goal. But start easy. Don't try to do too much at once. Set up small goals to achieve: this week I'm going to walk 1 mile each day. Next week I'm going to walk 1 mile each day, plus 1.5 miles every other day. Then go to the gym and do the same thing. You will be amazed how quckly you will build up your stamina. And please, please, stop smoking. My husband died from smoking, and he spent a lot of miserable years before he died not being able to climb 4 stairs without gasping for breath. When he was young he had been a long distance runner. Not fun for him OR me. You deserve to be healthy and skinny. Say this to yourself every day. Then go out there and live it. Good luck!

I really sympathize with you. I stopped going to the gym when I tore my ACL and haven't been back since. I really want to get the rest of this weight off. It's very depressing to think I'll never make it to mine or my doc's goal. MY greatest fear is gaining it all back. I live with that fear everyday and believe me there's not much I'm afraid of. As soon as my PS gives me the clear, I've made a resolution to begin working out again as long as I don't irritate my knee. Swimming and low impact is all I can do. You have to re-commit yourself. I put a fat pic up of me on the fridge. It works. Confession is the first step, now you got to take the second step. Back to exercise.

it is good to see you here. I missed you. You sound depressed, and superman leaving in January isnt going to help that. Have you looked into some therapy to work on body image issues? I know how it can be, I have been thru it and it still hits me sometimes. (see my post a little ways down) Exercise doesn't HAVE to be a gym. where are you stationed now? is the weather decent? go out and take supergirl for a walk, dance around the living room, get an exercise video. Maybe there is another mom near you who needs a friend too, who would also like an exercise buddy? hacve fun wioth your classes, you might even make a friend there you can hang with and go work out together. I'm sorry you are down right now, hope you feel better soon. HUGS!

I have long read your posts and think you are beautiful! I was so envious of all the PS you had and the great success. You know if you never lose another lb wouldn't that be okay? But wouldn't you love Superman to come home to an energetic strong woman? That's the benefit of the gym...not the weiht lose, but rather the gaining of strength, both inner and outer. You can do it! Peace, melinda

(((HUGS)))) You'll get it all together soon. Sounds like you know what you need to do and just need some encouragement. You've done amazing with your loss to date and you should be patting yourself on the back for your success. Stay positive. Don't allow negative thoughts to cloud your mind. Be positive that you will continue to look after yourself. You have been a great inspiration to me. I wish you continued success and much happiness. Karen G

I can totally relate to what your feeling. I, on the other hand, have gained weight back. I have gained back 65lbs and feel like a total failure.

Like the Nike commercial says "just do it". No more promises, no more debates, no more plans, no more thinking about it - just DO it and keep doing it. It WILL become a habit and you WILL start to enjoy the endorphin rush, I promise. Hugs, Tracy