cooking and cooking and cooking balhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I LOVE to Cook, but I cook what I want and am hungry for and everybody else has to adapt or make their own. My husband really appreciates me cooking healthy and keeping the junk and sugar out as he has a constant struggle with his weight. I cook healthy 99% of the time and I do not keep junk in the house. if it is there it calls my name until I cave in. If It isn't here I rarely even think about it, and definately am too lazy to go to the store for it. I am an addict and cookies are my drug of choice. I got to work yesterday (hospital nicu) and in our break area were 2 large platters of fancy cookies and a box of chocolate chip cookies brought in by a patient's parents for us to enjoy. I didnt touch them, but it was so hard that finally I asked the other girls if they minded if I gave them to post partum, that I felt like an alcoholic in a bar, and they said good idea, they didnt need it either. Several people have told me that I am a good influence on them, when I refuse the cookies etc, it makes them think twice about their own health. There is one person who will eat chocolate etc in front of me and oooh and aahhh over it and how good it is, but she has a big weight problem so I just look, see her eating it and look at my flat tummy. I think maybe not purposely, maybe unintentional , but she wants to sabotage me. I never say anything to her about it . No one else is allowed to bring in quantites of junk. Very Early post op my son brought home a a dozen donuts an plopped them in the middle of the table and I was wanting one so bad I practically cried. I was on clear lquids at the time. he told me just use some discipline and don't eat it, and I layed down the law. I told him I am having a problem here and he needs to be understanding and cooperate. If he wants to eat that crap he is an adult. fine. but, either buy just one and consume it before you get home or keep it in your room. so far that has been the rule for almost 4 years and it works well.

Aw Joann, I do understand. I love the "thought" of cooking, but I can't taste most of my food and I'm only cooking for me. You would think it would be easy, but it isn't. I try to make 2-3 things that I can "eat on" for the week. Shee****'s easier to eat nasty crap than to make something healthy, but I keep plugging away. Too much work, too little time, not enough time for ME. (Who's that anyway?) I need to get back to the days of time on the front porch... Now about winter....we only have 3 seasons here. Mild rain, misty rain and wishful thinking. Actually this summer we have set a record for the least amount of rainfall. I think it all went to the east coast this year. My watermelon, canteloupe and honeydew are doing GREAT!! I certainly can't complain about this past summer but we don't tell anyone that it is actually nice here or everyone and their dog would move here then it wouldn't be so rural anymore LOL Trisha