What am I DOING???

Gawd, what the heck am I doing over here??? I've been not only grazing like crazy, I've been eating purely stupid stuff, only thing I don't eat is sugar cause it makes me dump bad. I'm eating pretzels, popcorn, bites of bread, corn, potatoes.... Oh man, the carb monster is bad bad bad with me lately. I knew I was off track, really bad, but didn't see the pattern till I just typed it right here... The really bad thing is, I've gained two lbs since all this started. I know it's no****er, it's real. < sigh > Ok, so how do I get control of this? Gawd, I don't wanna end up right back where I was!

Kris, I am right there with you. Stuffing my face with everything in sight. I don't dump on sugar, it makes me tired, but I eat it anyway. I haven't gained anything, knock on wood, but I know if I don't stop I will. I have started to see a counselor to see why I have this self destructive behavior. I am only 1 session in but hopefully will be able to figure something out. I am here for you. Hugs, Bridget

Ya know, I signed up for that "emotional eating" thing they offered over on the main board and by the second session I knew it wasn't for me. I felt led to respond certain ways, and next thing I know, I was saying the reason I eat is because my hubby ignores me. That's NOT true at all, so I just dropped it. I mean, I thought it was going to allow me to really explore why I eat, not offer me closed end responses that really don't fit... Maybe I do need to try counseling, nothing else seems to work. And the funny thing is, I don't expect the food to make me feel better, I know it won't, I KNOW WHILE I'M EATING IT that I will feel like chit in a few minutes, but I do it anyway. Just like before, I like the taste and the way it feels in my mouth. Maybe Frued was right and I am stuck in some immature baby stage where I wanna suckle all the time! Yea, I know I'm making light of a serious situation but that's the way I deal with crappy things. I get them out in the open, point and laugh at them till they aren't so scarey any more, then I can examine them and really deal with them. God I hope it works this time!

Yeah, I can't seem to find a reason either....I'm not really an emotional eater, I seem to be more of just a compulsive eater....So, going to look into some counseling, and AT LEAST go to the wonderful support meetings we have in my area. Thanks for posting this and making some of us really admit what is going ...D.

First off, we all have those days where we totally blow it and none of us are perfect. That being said, this is what you need to do. Throw everything away that shouldn't be in your house...waste better than waist! Stomp on it, do anything you must to make sure you won't eat it. Make sure you have only the snacks you were allowed early on ****ep soy chips, cheese, yogurt, etc. on hand). When you get the urge to eat something you shouldn't, ask yourself why are you trying to sabotage yourself? Tell yourself that you've come so far, you've done so well, you've lost x no. of lbs. in x no. of months, don't blow it for a few minutes of satisfaction. Then drink a glass of water, go for a wal****upy your mind with something not related to food. I recently threw a food tantrum and ate like a kid " I want this and I'm going to have it!" Afterwards, I asked myself why did I do that! The only thing I can figure is that I've tried so hard to do this the right way, I've been exercising like a fiend, and not seeing any results in the weight loss department. (Man, these last 20 lbs is hard!!!!) So, I threw my food tantrum, ate everything in site, and said "screw it, I don't care!" But I do care! So the next day, I got back with the program. That's the key, don't let one day become two, three and so on. Keep telling yourself that you have made a lifestyle change and you are only going to eat healthy, nourishing food. Eat 5 or 6 meals a day to keep hunger at bay. Just make sure those meals are small meals. You know what you need to do. You couldn't have lost as much weight as you've had if you didn't. Be honest with yourself and before you put one piece of food past those lips, ask yourself if this is a healthy choice. Only you can make that change, how bad to you want it? I'm challenging you! Linda

>>>Only you can make that change, how bad to you want it? Thank you, that's the kind of gentle slap in the face I need. One day has become the last week and a half, but no more. Thanks again.