Whatcha Eating Today VSGers? Saturday, August 11, 2018
on 8/11/18 6:49 pm - Amarillo, TX
It was very traumatic, I admit. It was at a time where I was bullied insistently as I was getting more and more heavier. By fifth grade I was at about 6 foot. It was the worst time of my life...4th through 11th grade. I had no friends at all until 9th grade one person who moved in 10th grade to another school. I was a lonely kid who used food to fill that gap. As well as other things. That teacher...i'll Never be fond of but I do forgive her. I have finally in the past few years forgiven the crappy kids that treated me so badly. By 7th grade i'd Been in a few fights and let's just say people got scared of me. That's no good way to feel either.
I also wanted to clarify that my father tried to commit suicide because of his wife leaving him. He never thought of us. I didn't mean to say that I have no empathy for everyone who's been suicidal or has done it. I've been close to that step but it's my fathers example that has saved me. For that I'm thankful.
I've been needing to talk about this with someone. I hope y'all don't mind but it helps me immensely.
Thank you you for the replies!
Mel
I was lonely, too. When I hang out with a group, I often feel like the odd one out, even if rationally I know I?m not. These things that happen when we are kids are real and they last.
i don?t think you were being insensitive about people with suicidal feelings. What it is sounding like is that your dads attempt was motivated by a narcissistic impulse to make someone else feel bad. Am I understanding that correctly?
HW: 260 - SW: 250
GW (Surgeon): 170 - GW (Me): 150
on 8/12/18 6:27 am - Amarillo, TX
Indeed! I just didn't want to make anyone feel bad...I know it's a sensitive subject.
Mel
Hi, Liz! Nothing firm on my agenda until tonight. Want to clear some clutter, maybe try to clean a problem closet. Definitely want to get in the pool, as I have not moved much this week.
One thing that's been troubling me the past few days. I'm feeling hungry :/. It's not dehydration and I truly don't believe it's stomach acid. I really didn't think it would happen this soon. As expected, hunger is quickly doused. Still, I'm a bit bummed. Hoping this is a temporary stage. Did any of you experience this?
QOTD: Great question, but I'm too brain dead to think of one, defining event. I have to say that being a heavy almost all my life shaped my life and self in myriad ways: mostly bad or sad, but some good.
B - Chili. I know this sounds weird! It is leftovers. Super meaty with veggies and a few beans. Funny how a few ounces of anything is now "substantial".
L - Chicken and turkey with sliced raw peppers
D - Shake
S - Coffee with Fairlife skim milk
HW: 260 - SW: 250
GW (Surgeon): 170 - GW (Me): 150
I thought I felt hunger from the very beginning, which really bummed me out because other posters would say they were never hungry and forgot to eat. Now at almost 2.5 years out I'm starting to realize that a lot of my "hunger" then and now is "head-hunger". The only way I can really distingui**** is that I don't feel it at the same times when I am away from the house and food. I will think I'm hungry when I know what time it is and I know it is time to eat, but if I don't know the time I'm not hungry. Kind of weird, but true.
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
on 8/11/18 11:11 pm
Even if it is real hunger, try to keep in mind that hunger is not an alarm you have to answer right away.
Thank you. This is a good thing to remember! I just wanted to not care about eating anymore. And I'd rather not be hungry and need to eat. I feel like..am I the one damn person who feels hungry after a VSG!? Like I said, I hope this is just a stage. I plan on sticking to my program, but I sure don't need it to be any harder than it is.
HW: 260 - SW: 250
GW (Surgeon): 170 - GW (Me): 150