guilty of sneaky eating(fries, junk)/over eating within 3 weeks? am I dead? stomach's...

Just think chicken salad,  or tuna salad.  It wasn't so bad that way.  

It basically ends up like baby food-- which isn't so bad. As the mom of a kid who's just starting pureed chicken, I can vouch that it's actually pretty good :)

Were french fries on the post op plan that your surgeon gave you?

Stretching your pouch isn't the issue.  You are eating as if you never had surgery.  

Are you taking a PPI?  If you seriously feel hungry, it could be stomach acid which can mimic hunger.   Otherwise, it's head hunger and you're confusing the two.

Throwing up is yet another eating disorder.  You posted recently asking if it was okay to chew food, then spit it out.  I'm honestly amazed that you qualified psychologically for surgery.  

Why did you have WLS?  

no no I don't have any eating disorders, I was temporarily thrown off my goal probably cause I already felt glad the surgery is over and I'll be thin and all! I think I'll put my head into perspective again.

The surgery isn't magic.  Don't you realize that?  You will NEVER be able to eat like you did before surgery.  In fact, you will have to be more diligent than you have ever been in your life.  You will either (1) never lose much weight, or (2) gain back the weight you lose.

It's said here often but bears repeating:  They operate on your gut, not your head.  If you don't change your thinking about food, you will fail. 

I ought to sticky note this to my pc! I see what you mean :)

I think you need to find a therapist who will help you figure it all out.

I have an eating disorder and I didn't know about it before I had surgery.  At my the first pre-op seminar for the surgery, my bariatric nurse said something that struck home and really put it all into perspective.  If you got large enough to need surgery, you have some sort of issue with food.  The issue is different for everyone, but we all have issues.  Yours may be easier to overcome than mine, or mine easier for me, but we have them.  I honestly believe that.

Please don't hurt yourself by thinking that it's all just going to be okay, because if you keep going the way you are now, it most definitely won't be okay.

You have a sleeve, not a pouch & I think you're misinformed as to what you'll expect from a sleeved stomach. For one eating junk food, i.e. carbs from french fries won't in itself make you throw up. I think you're thinking about people with pouches or people who have the band. I've heard banders throw up their food when the band is too tight. I've heard rny'rs sometimes experience dumping because of the refined carbs/sugar.

I doubt you've stretched your sleeve, but there are some real red flags in your post, like trying to make yourself throw up,& feeling guilty about food, being 3 weeks out & eating foods you shouldn't eat.,etc.

I can understand not liking pureed foods, but really you have to suck it up & get your head on straight. Often people have to do things they don't like because its good for them, kinda like when your mom makes you eat vegetables as a kid, she knows its good for you even if you don't like it. Same thing here. 

Please get some therapy, it can really help you.

I'll be making a check with my doctor next Monday on completion of a month, I'll surely bring this up to him, many of you'd mentioned the same fact about my psychological prep, even if not major, there must be some truth to it! thank you :)

"Eating and throwing up" deliberately afterwards is called bulimia. I would suggest you see a therapist, and tell your surgeon EXACTLY what you're doing.