I am so so sorry your in everyone's thoughts and prayers. Please don't gain back your weight you did so very well . I know we can all medicate ourselves with food take it from someone who knows it does not work
I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing more heartbreaking than losing a baby/child.
Allow your body and mind time to heal. Everything else will fall back into place when it is supposed to. Sending warm hugs to you during this difficult time.