Cross post for accountability.

149.2- same as last Sunday.  This week I swung from 145.8 (low) back to today's weight.  I really believe that my "ideal weight" is around  145.  Given that, what am I doing to get there and stay there?  Nothing.  I'm sitting on the pity pot and it's because I put myself there.  Going for "tastes"- not necessarily bad stuff- raw and cooked veggies- seasoned stuff- You know- TASTES!- peppered in with a cracker...or a nut...(ok, a FEW crackers or nuts)--not so much with the exercise either- cold-dark- wet-don'twanna...- anyways, doing the day that way leaves not enough room for the protein and liquids I believe my body needs to function well AND the negative connection is, it's messing with my mind and attitude and I am becoming AFATPERSONINMYHEAD.  Wow- no good.  OK- This is it.  I give myself permission to sit here this one more day- Not the eating-drinking part- that revision starts now.  Come tomorrow, it's up at 4:30 like it used to be- out to the wash-house for the hour on the treadmill, into the kitchen for cottagecheese and greek yogurt instead of a big cup of do nothing for me coffee and Back to the life and mental state I want to have.  There, I've said it.  Will I do it?

You go girl!  Kick that fat Woman out of your head and tell her she can't live there anymore!

Ya, I didn't like her so much when she lived with me before- and-she stayed way too long-years and years.  Not this time.  

if your body stays at 149, it may mean thats what it is happy at , 145 might be to low for you

but if you want to get and stay 145 you need to get back on plan and exercise

I add protein shake to my coffee so I get something out of it

Thanks for your perspective- I enjoy reading your "take" on things.  I keep a graph, and have since August- for the most part, I float between 145 and 148/9.  The number dosn't bother me nearly as much as my current attitude-mindset- as it were.  "Get back on plan and exercise"- ya- I want to do/be what I "say" I am.  How do you do the hot coffee-protein without it getting globby-yucky?  I make a mean cold cocoamocha protein shake--but no go with the hot.

You will do it!!!  I could rationalize and say my body is happy at 143 but I know that is not true.  I was staying under 140# before the holidays and then the eating with abandonment came.  I'm better, but if I'm honest I'm biting and licking and tasting too much.  That's need to get under control or 143# turns to 145# then before I know it to 150# and then my pants don't fit.  I really can't afford to let my body be happy...that's how I got fat!  That's my truth...

We can do this!!!  I just know it!

"biting and licking and tasting too much"- yep, that's me.  Dosen't sound attractive when you put it like that.  Time to stop.  Thanks.

It looks like you have lost over 85 lbs which is awesome.  Don't let 4 pounds get into your head...so not worth it.

We all know the pattern of negative thinking= beating ourselves up which for me only lead to a spiral of bad behavior.

good for you for being aware of triggers and challenges but I hope you don't lose sight of what you have accomplished in the last year.

i am 31/2 weeks post op and I have a ways to go so your success motivates me!

Of course you will do it...now that you posted, you have it. That's a rule, right? :)

I am glad you caught the fat lady creeping around in your head at 149. I'm sure it's a lot easier to evict her now than further down the road! You know what to do. You've got this!

Thanks!  I hate that lady!  And you are right- the longer she stays, the harder it is to make her go away.