Manic Monday - update for my friends

Alison, my heart just simply goes out to you.  I can't imagine dealing with all that you've dealt with so gracefully.  

As far as food goes, my first instinct is to tell you to focus on survival first, weight second.  But I know that nutrition is important too. Are there pre-packaged options that aren't too expensive that you can reach for without having to think about it or cook it?  Maybe some of your friends can get together one day and prep a bunch of crockpot meals that can go into the freezer?  There are lots of ideas on Pinterest around that concept, and most look pretty healthy.

If I lived anywhere near you, I'd be there this afternoon getting the grocery list together.  I know that there are many that would drop everything and do the same - you are a sweet, precious, caring, funny woman that has helped countless others.  

Thank you for giving us an update - do whatever you need to do to keep going girl; we need you!

I have stuff...its just a matter of taking it out and cooking....Thankfully work is just letting me come in for a couple hours a day right now, so I have time to do something....just need to do it i guess. And actually eat it. Ive managed to cook some stuff and then decide I dont want it :-p

I really think that a ton of people don't understand when someone posts a "Here's where I'm at now" post, they are not looking for an outpouring of perceived wisdom, simply letting people know they are still alive and ticking.

 

Back problems. The only time i saw my ex get close to losing it anf bi "it" I mean his mind, totally and irretrievably is when he slipped and hurt his back.  He could not move, he could not dress, he could not do anything for himself and the things he would insist on doing (like wiping his ass) would result in wailing.  The back.  Man, everything stems from there.  I feel for you.  And when he found good pain management because everyone we contacted who had had the surgery suggested he not have it, he was a zombie, so girl anything i have in terms of sympathy or empathy, is your right now. 

 

I hope you have some good anti depressants and are doing what you can to take care of yourself.  

Your eating?  I'm sure.  I was incredibly work and I guess life stressed last week and i ate **** i have not eaten in two years.  and i ate them over and over again, and i baked and i drank.  I kept saying to myself where are your strategies"?  Well clearly they were somewhere up my ass that i could not access and so it goes.  It felt like the old days, mornings were full of hope for good eating and i'd fall into bed in a food and alcohol fog.

 

Here's the good news.  It seemed to last forever but it was about seven days.  some of it was trying to pull some pants up and hoping during my meeting that the button didn't pop out and take someone's eye out, more of it was that i saw the old me and the hundreds of pounds i have lost since my teens making a comeback.

 

All this to say i'm so sorry for what you are going through and I want you to be good to yourself and no matter what those brightly colored bags of goodness that call you you and swear undying friendship, they are in fact like a sketchy guy with an ugly rash who tells you it is nothing to worry about. Be worried be very worried.  Eating is such the thing we do that soothes and lulls us, us most especially...into a false sense of security, it turns out but i get it.  for that moment,...well it's like Lou Reeds perfect day, except it's about fifteen minutes(maybe heroin lasts longer, damn a whole day, what would that be like).  However this horrible time is about you doing whatever gets you through because surviving it is the big win and that need all your energy.  So figure out what you can do.

 

I'm sorry all of this is happening and for such a long time it seems but you are right 2014 will be your year.  Best wishes my friend.

This pain made me lose my mind literally....i never imagined in my life id end up in a psych hospital for real, let alone a couple times within a month...but...here I am. Im on some new meds trying to get my sleep and everything regulated (because seriously, being depressed and in pain, and CANNOT sleep is the worst combination - I dont know how I made it this long).

 

I need someone to put me in a cage and lock me up - unfortunately, I ate nothin but junk for a month straight (thinking I wouldnt live long enough to deal with the damage) and now Im just in the iron grips of the carb monster. The thought of eating eggs or something for breakfast when Ive been eating pop tarts......

Now that im back at work and away from home and away from fast food and other junk....I think it'll keep me distracted for a minute and maybe allow me to start packing food again and getting back into a routine.

Do you have anyone nearby that could come over and take you grocery shopping for a few things that are healthy but minimal effort? Or - just a thought - Candy gets bariatric freezer meals from someplace...

Sending you good wishes, I do know what you mean about being smaller making everything better...it doesn't happen.  Take are of yourself Alison.

I hope things start to improve for you soon.  You are a strong, brave and inspiring person for many of us.

When I finally decided to get back on plan after gaining weight back, I started by cutting out one bad thing for a few days first.  Once I got that under control, I cut out another bad thing.  I'd been eating **** for 9 mos and I just couldn't do it by going cold turkey.  I would just try to be a little bit better each day. Eventually, I became motivated enough to get back to my wl plan. It's only been a few weeks so I haven't lost much but I'm still trying to stick with it. 

Sending positive thoughts and vibes your way!

 

I'm sorry to hear that you have been going through such a struggle.  Hopefully you are headed in the right direction with the pain management.   Just know that there are many people out here in cyberspace that are cheering for you.  I have no idea how to send a pm but if you get a chance and don't mind, please send me the Wordpress password/username for your blog.  Hoping things will start to turn around for the better!

Just wanted to send you virtual hugs. I wish that I could take some of the emotional and physical pain away from you. I think it's best to just do what you can, when you can. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I know you're doing your best to keep it all together. I hope switching insurance will really help things.... let me know if there is anything I can do for you!

Sorry I missed your post yesterday. I just wanted to send you a big hug. I have had minor pain in my life that lasted a while and it sucks but major pain? No and I think it's got to be ******g ****ty. Childbirth is the most pain I've had and even that doesn't last more than 24 hours. My father has back pain and it's terrible on him. I can't remember the exact name for his issue but he has good days and bad days. He goes to a chiro doctor for injections in his back sometimes and it hurts him for a few days and then he feels quite a bit better for a while.  I feel awful for him. I feel awful for you. I've seen how it wreaks havoc on him. He had to give up his beloved golf, he walks a bit hunched over when he's in pain, and he too has gained quite a bit of weight partially due to the inability to be active as much. He has also been having sleeping issues too. I have had the sleeping issues in the past and the only thing that has helped me is melatonin. It is the only thing that has worked for me. But I am sure you've tried everything. I just hope you get enough help soon. Something has got to be out there to help you. January can't get here fast enough for your new insurance. You are much appreciated and cared about here. Good luck