Out of control and getting scared

I know how you feel. I'm almost 2 years out. Still gave about 20 lbs I'd like to lose but i got comfortable with where i was and had a little here or there and then i find myself going through drive thru's, ordering bad things and all that. You know the story, we all do. But this is life and no one is perfect. I got the my fitness pal app and found that if i force myself to keep track it does help. I got out of the "i already blew it, I'll start back tomorrow" because that's how i got to over 400 lbs in the first place. Emotional eating sucks and the truth is i have an eating disorder. We all have eating disorders and we always will. Surgery can't take that away. But we can control them and look inside for the answers. Hey be proud that you posted and admitted your issues. There are people out there that can't admit things to themselves let alone another person. Be brave. You know what to do and you can do it. Best thing i do is keep a before pic in my wallet and when i wasn't to give up i look at that person and say, "no, never again. I will not go back." Stay strong and best of luck.

All I can say is WOW and thank you.  It's so true we go for this miracle surgery and things are great at the beginning losing the weight, new clothes, compliments and then whamo everything stops.  It's so easy to go back to the way I was, but I am not going to do it.  I don't ever want to go back to the way I was - ever!!  I actually have a photo of myself taken the day before surgery that is in my computer at work that I look at  once in a while and can't believe what I looked like.  I can't fail this time and I won't.  Thank you again for reply it hit something inside me.  I wish you the best also - it's not easy no matter how many people think it is.  Stay strong also my fellow VSG'r . 

 

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Hey I'm just glad i could help. That's what i love about this site and the people on here. We really are like a family and people here are so supportive. I've been away from the site for awhile but when i started struggling the first thing i did was come back and even though i guess I'm considered a vet i find that just coming on here and helping the newbies and anybody by answering a question or responding to a thread just makes me feelbetter, more connected and makes me remember what it was like in the beginning. I mean, how soon we forget what we went through in the beginning, good bad and ugly. But I've got myself back on track and I'm hoping to finally drop these last 20 lbs and i know you'll find your way and the things that are going to keep you focused. If you ever want to PM me feel free, whether its a question or you want to vent or just need some support. And btw the pic on my profile isn't me, its one of my favorite band singers. I plan on posting real pics to my profile but i want to wait til my anniversary which is Nov 2.
I guess i was too self conscious even here to post em but it really is amazing and I'm glad you keep an old photo handy. I have some in my phone. It really is amazing to see how far you've come. For me, like i said i started out at 410 and I'm 6'3". I'm now fluctuating between 230 to 220 and I'd like to get down to 200 though the Dr originally wanted my to be closer to 180 but i don't think its gonna happen cuz i would look totally manorexic. But yeah, 180lbs lost. That's another full grown man and i don't recognize myself when i look at those pictures. Its very motivating and will help a lot.
Just curious about something. For me, when I'm going about my day there's times i just forget or it escapes me about the whole weight loss thing and then i go to the bathroom and look in the mirror and its like a stranger is looking back at me. I mean, some mornings ill go to brush my teeth and i just look I'm the mirror for what seems like ever because i don't know who that person is looking back. Its hard to explain but does that ever happen to you? Or am i crazy, lol. Anyway, again I'm glad i could help.
Best,
Jonathan.