"Are you too happy?"

That was a crazy question my psychiatrist asked me the other day. When I saw him last, it was kind of on an emergency basis and I was having a complete melt down, crying, talking some nonsense and what not. In the last 6 weeks, Ive gotten so much better. I actually wake up - im happy, im positive, and even through all the pain ive been dealing with. I started a new med at that time which I think played a large part in my improved mood - and I told him that. He asked me if I was too happy and if he should reduce my dose. WTF. No. LOL. But hey - I like that better then "are you suicidal" I got last time. 

Im happy - to be happy. Im in miserable pain, but im not letting it get me too down. I have had a few moments of self pity where ive stuffed my face with fruit or nuts and regretted in pretty quick. But even on my worst days, I'm only getting 1800 cal or so which is a huge improvement over the rest of the year where 1800 was a low day. 

Im so ******g proud of myself - most of you have been waiting for me to say that - so there i go. I am very very very proud of myself. Ive been on my little track for 50 days now...when my longest streak this year was 7 days. Im slowly losing weight, i look really good, i like my body. 

I am sooo lucky I got to spend the weekend in Vegas with the most beautiful princess - Reee (italian princess). I was the worst vegas company, crying like a baby from the worst pain ive ever felt in my life, but we got to talk so much, and I enjoyed every minute of it. I think apart from getting my life back and losing weight, the MOST amazing part of the journey has been building an incredibly strong support network, and meeting so many of you in person. For those of you that prefer to keep this surgery on the downlow, t get it, but I have - by putting myself out there - issues and all - been able to build this network. I g

OMG my beautiful Alison! I love love love your post. I am sooo fckin proud of you! You can NEVER be too happy. Keep on being the happiest most beautiful super woman you can be! Love you buddy. Hope your pain goes away, so you can be even happier! You are freakin awesome!

I will only be happier when I get to see you again. It's been way tooooo long :)   Love you!!!

So glad you are now on the upswing!

I'm proud that you're proud. Seriously. About ******g time you realized how awesome you are.

Honestly, finding the right meds can really make all the difference too. I know it did for me. ((HUGS))

Now, go get that back fixed, girlfriend! I don't want some gimpy woman in my bed!

And I agree. I've met some of the most supportive people here. I'm lucky to call you a close support buddy. You get me and my nutty dry sense of humor and I kind of love that.

Why do I have to wait so long to meet you???? Booooohooooo :((((

If my b ack is super screwed up and I have to go back on medical leave, can I come hang out with you while you recover from surgery??

Absolutely! Austin is beautiful - well, once it's not 110 outside.

Share the Happy Juice........

frisco

I would totally share, but dude, it has too many carbs for you!

I knew the carb thing was gonna bite me in the azz one day.......the Happy Juice did it.......

frisco