Emotional ramblings...thoughts about eating disorder treatment

I know $125/session seems like a lot, but in the big picture, if she helps you heal, it's so worth it.

You've spent the money for the VSG and PS for your body, now might be the time to spend the money to help you heal mentally.    A good therapist is worth every penny.  Maybe she would offer you a cash discount or allow you to work on a payment plan?  If you have good feelings about her, try and make it work.  Good therapy can change your life forever. 

I thought about that and made myself angry earlier - i just have skipped the PS and just paid for a therapist to begin with.  But I may just have to suck it up and pay for it. After I meet with her, I'll decide. 

You worked hard and rewarded yourself with PS.  Nothing wrong with that, at all!   I only wish you felt as good as your body looks.  You've spent a lot of time and hard work to get where you are at.  Try to not let your head mess with all that progress. 

Depression has a way about taking some of the best things and turning them into dread.  You should be very proud of yourself for ALL of your accomplishments.  You've inspired so many of us on this board. 

I hope your new therapist helps you to see all the good again.