Weekly Challenge - mid week check in

1. have made my water goal each day this week.
2. Have made it to the gym on the days I've planned (M & W) and will go today and tomorrow.
3. Have eaten very well this week EXCEPT for the several pieces of Halloween candy I've allowed myself. Not proud of that, but it is life and I'm learning to make better choices all the time.

I figure since I'm down roughly two pounds from the beginning of the week I'm doing okay. I will just keep on keeping on.

You are doing so awesome my friend.

Even though I did not initially participate my goals were to move more and have more positive thought about being succesful in this process.

I'm still working on both. I keep playing games in my head like telling myself I'm happy where I am, If I don't lose anymore. I just feel a little nutzy sometimes. Still waiting for that whole euphoria thing.

Oh, sorry Alison, I kinda got swept up by everyone's post on your thread.

You must be having a hell of a time dealing with all these things... my emotions would be all over the place.  HUGS my friend & I wanna be there for you if you need me.

My goals... hum.. started off well but my Thai lunch yesterday sort of set the pace for the rest of yesterday.  But since I'm close to goal (& heck, sometimes I just wanna throw in the towel & say I am done with it) I don't like to beat myself up anymore.  I just gotta get back on track, you know?  Again, this is a life long challenge I signed up for.  I still love my sleeve.

My goal, if I remember right, was to stop obsessing about my very slow and/or total lack of weight loss over the last umpteen days/weeks.  Intellectually, I get it and I'm fine.  Emotionally, not so much.  I'm still obsessing, so here's something else where I'm an epic failure.  I try to joke about it, but it's false humor.  I'm frustrated and angry and hopeless.  I won't give up -- that's not my style -- but this slow losing/no losing at only about 4 months out is discouraging.

I'll weigh on Saturday -- two weeks prior to this coming Saturday was the last time I lost anything, so I hope there's some movement on the scale. 

Other than that, life is just peachy!

 Ree!!! Hugs!!

 Doing so-so on the goals this week. 

Still fighting this respiratory thing. Doc says its likely viral, so hopefully it'll go away soon.

Haven't been able to run, and feeling ****ty and guilty about it. Tried again today, but just not rid of the cold enough yet. Will try again tomorrow. I may repeat week 6 whenever I can start up again since I've missed a few days. 

Staying hydrated is one I'm actually hitting. Could always add more, though.

1. Go back to work on Wednesday with a possitive attitude. I know I'm going back to some problems for me to fix, but back to work I must go. So far, so good. My sub was great, she even left me a clean desk (last time I was gone for a while, that did not happen). I was tired at the end of the day, more than usual, but I settled into my recliner with my cats and watched the game. Today is a little better, but looking forward to the weekend.

2. Enjoy that fancy hotel we are staying at for the rock & roll 1/2 marathon. DH is running the race, so is our OP Alison and Ms Shell. I'm the cheering section, anyone else want to join me? We check in Saturday so no progress until then.

3. Hit my liquid & protien goals once I get back to work. It might be a bit more challenging when I'm not at home. Yesterday this was great, hit my goals and even drank a little extra water. Today has been more of a challenge.

Alison, I know we all have our head issues to deal with, but as you go see Dr. Saaceda (sp) to change your life again, try to start thinking about the possitive. You did the VSG to lead a healthier life, the PS will just help you enjoy that healthier life more easily. I know you've got this, you just need to know it yourself.

I am thinking about the positive, but I dont do very well with uncontrolled anxiety. Totally derails me. I am worried about the pain, the recovery, the complictions, but mostly with what happens after all that - my identity, the way I see myself, the way others perceive me. Everything that Ive struggled to cope with up to this point is basically going to start all over.

In the end, I will be just fine. Once I make it through the first few weeks, it will be uphill from there, but I need to stop sabotaging myself....

Thanks for your support Linda!! It will be amazing to have your support this weekend. And I will definitely have lots of protein with me over the weekend for recovery - protein oatmeal and shakes :)