SOS - omg - major whine ahead

 I just have to vent before I go do something stupid.

In the last week, my scale has gone up 9 lbs. NINE. My scale tells me it's a 2.5% increase in body fat. ITS A LIE.  I know it's absolutely beyond impossible - i weight and measure everything that goes in my mouth down to the tbsp of A1 sauce or ketchup!  I know that there is no way that ive consumed enough calories to gain 9 lbs unless Ive been royally screwing up my measuring skills. 

It started after I drank 4 cups of chicken broth on Saturday. So Sunday when I woke up 7 lbs heavier, I freaked out big time but I at least understood a possible reason. I went and ran and pushed tons of fluids. Yesterday, I cut back my carbs (and had for me a low carb day) and calories, and drank drank drank - and I can't see how I was retaining water since I was peeing like a horse every 30 minutes. 

Going from 190 to almost 199 in a week has pushed me into full out PANIC. It's too close to 200. And for the first time, I said screw it and did not go out for my run this morning. I got dressed and my clothes just felt tight and I was extremely irritable - I have no idea what I'm going to do. Thankfully last night I had the odd feeling that i should pack my food last night so at least I dont have to worry about it this morning and I have a nice healthy bag of food to grab - I'm not going to go eat like crap but I really want to. My first thought was to go grab a pizza. 

I dont know what's going on. I'm scared it might be related to this wellbutrin I started taking even though I dont believe that a psych med can actually cause weight gain without the caories to go with it...but I'm just going to sit and cry like a baby because this isnt funny. If I wasnt about to tip 200, Id throw the scale out, but I am toooo paranoid to do it right now. 

Thanks for letting me whine - i lov eyou guys and all of your support will keep me from going off the deep end in an epic manner today. 

 It's got to be the sodium from the broth! Could something else be causing you to retain fluids?  TMO?  Have you had kidney issues?  Hang in there!  You know you're doing all the right things!!  Don't let the scale derail you!

I am sure there will be much better, more experienced advice to come...

Maybe try drinking lemon water, either real lemons squeezed or the real lemon from the bottle. It seems to help with the water retention and rids my body of that extra salt. Maybe something to try? 

I am sure this is very much a struggle... I am sure you will get it situated, but I would be flipping out too. Good luck! 

Amy

Yes, it has to be the sodium in the broth,,,, I woud watch your sodium the next couple of days and I bet you loose it fast. Could also be getting ready for that time of the month?

 My hormones are all screwed up so who the hell knows.....maybe my brain is swelling and causing me to be an irrational whiny B***** lol. 

Remember when I went from 210 to 220 in just 5 days? You told me to calm down, it was obviously sodium or PMS or something else at work. I stayed the course and it came off in less than 10 days.

You know it's not real. Do what you're supposed to be doing. Stay off the scale if it helps you. Yell and scream if it helps. It's not real. ((HUGS))

 Well the universe needs to take its cruel ass joke and shove it!!  I'm soo stressed as it is...this is not a good time!! 

I'm good at a lot of things in life - taking my own advice is on the BOTTOM of that list :-p  I need a drink and it's only 6:00 am. 

Ah, but when would be a good time, eh? *laughing*

It's not fair and you have every right to stomp your feet and yell and scream. IT IS NOT FAIR.

Hang in there, honey... I know all too well how you feel right now. ((HUGS))

 What she said, exactly! Love you both! 

So sorry you're going through this, Allison.  Totally sucks and you don't deserve it at all.  I'm sure you know it's water retention.  But knowing something intellectually doesn't always help emotionally.  Getting close to that 200 mark isn't helping you either...........our psychological barriers can do us in.  As you have told us, stay away from the scale.  Really -- it will only drive you bezonkers. 

Take pride in not ordering that pizza!  That's to your credit and determination.  Very proud of you for that!  You took a healthy lunch this morning -- another tick in the plus column.  And so what if you took a morning off from running.  Forgive yourself and let it go.  Then continue with your NOT impaired measuring skills, stay on plan, and you wlll see a drop in weight when you weigh NEXT Monday!   Okay, next Friday at the earliest! 

Sending a big hug and good thoughts your way.

Best of luck................you can do this!

Ree