The incredible lightness of being thin

I still can't think of myself as being thin!  Its too new for me to have really fully imagined.

Some phrases that have seriously caught me off guard lately:

"Move your skinny ass over" - a Coworker who has seen me fluctualte over the last 4 years

"You're a string bean, I can't imagine you ever had a BMI of 44" - A pre-op who I met at a coffee shop to talk about my journey

"You look like you're on the lean side of normal" - in support group discussing body image.

And maybe the best one - a TSA agent at Chicago Midway not making the connection between me and my DL photo.  My therapist didn't either when she was reviewing my paperwork!
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Mentally, I just don't associate any of that with who I am yet.  In my mind I am still the fat man whos Drivers License photo looks like a bored butch lesbian (Please tell me she looks butch, I'd hate to look like a bored lipstick lesbian).  The difference is now I have super-powers.

I can run.  I enjoy running.  I enjoy being outdoors.  I enjoy hiking local trails.  The hubby and I like going on picnics and are planning a camping trip.  I never did any of that before, or at least not since I was a kid.  I am coming to life again - relearning lost or long put aside hobbies like astronomy.   My only creative outlet is not my computer anymore.  The process continues.

I have lost weight, the world is new again for me.  My life is a happy place full of hope again - even when I am stressed and being pulled in 800 directions and feel deprrived.  I am not going to let anything or anyone take that from me again.

I'm not at goal yet, but I get the same realization when I'm packing for the airport and weighing my suitcase.  It's hard to believe I was lugging around that extra 40-50 pounds every minute of every day.

So true!! Just the last 10-15lbs changed the way I move.. It's a nice feeling, and one that can still take me by surprise.. to be sitting cross legged on a couch, fold over, pick something off the floor and realize I did it without over straining, leveraging, and did it fluidly.. I feel taller, my arms and legs feel longer (it's just that my belly is gone!) I can zip & dance around a crowded kitchen with girls younger than me and totally fit, taking up only the space I need.. and move better than half of them! As I work to get leaner in BF, and more muscular, this feeling has only increased. I could have stopped at normal, but I'm shooting for something I've never been able to achieve before the VSG, lean and strong. It will take time to get there, but we have the rest of our lives to improve upon the day before- right?

Thanks vets for the inspiration ....can't wait to feel light!!!

 My husband is overweight, not by much (maybe 20 lbs) and is working on dropping some weight, the other day he called me into the bathroom to look at the scale and he weighed 166.5 which is pretty much exactly the amount of weight I have lost. I tried to get him on my back  in a piggyback (yeah, it was pretty freaking funny and the kids where dying with laughter), and it was ridiculous. I can't even believe I used to carry around that much weight ON MY BODY, ALL THE TIME! My poor, poor knees and joints! 

 Great realizations Diane.  We really had it tough carrying around those 100+ pounds. Everything is o much easier now.