A little disappointed in myself

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Oh sweetie, we are in similar places. I'm tired.

I'm tired of tracking. I'm tired of dieting. I'm tired of working out. I'm tired of looking at this melted body. I'm tired of thinking about it. I'm tired of talking about it. I'm just plain freaking TIRED of the whole damned thing.

I went through this around 7 months too. I think it's just overkill. I generally take a break from it all. I've been on a mini break for a few weeks. I'm still tracking and all that stuff, but I don't necessarily care. I had a little low sugar strawberry cobbler, for instance. I just need a brain break from it.

I think it comes from doing it for SO LONG. Those that have less to lose don't truly understand how daunting it is and how much of a daily grind it really is. Not to say they don't understand somewhat, but it's a whole other playing field to start at 400 pounds than 240, ya know?

You've lost 226 pounds! OF COURSE you're fed up with it and need a break!

Forgive yourself. Give yourself time to heal internally and then get back on the horse when you're ready. Just don't stay off too long. That's my own biggest fear... ((HUGS)) You know where I am.

sick and tired of being sick and tired  (had to let my southern grandmother lose on that one)

LOL! That's exactly it! :) xoxo

 These posts have been amazing.  And even in what she calls whining, Allison is an inspiration.  It does get old some days and you want to say screw it, but then we read this site and look at where we were and then hopefully decide to finish this journey.  I had the same experience Rob had....was going slow, went out of down....loosened up a little, eased up on my stress and had some fun with NO scale around and when I got home fully expecting a gain -- that week I lost 4 pounds. Go figure!!!  Allison, you are one of what I call the leaders on this site.  All of us respect and admire you -- certainly the weight you've lost, but more importantly what you say when you write....you always shoot from the hip without any bull**** so let me say what you would say to me.  You had your whine.......now pull it together....relax, be proud of you, keep running and 3 months will come and go and you will feel SO much better.  WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU!!!

You are an inspiration to me - your head is messing with you if don't see a WL of over 200 pounds as a success. And yet I am trying so hard to get in the Century Club- so close and I'm not sure why it matters so much. If at 14 months, I am below 200 by even one pound I will count myself a success - to have lost 200 pounds will put me at 196 and I know to have a BMI of 25 (normal???) I think I need to be somewhere at 169 but I will not let myself be held hostage to that number.

I read this a few hours ago and I needed to think about it before replying.  After seeing you a few weeks ago, I agree that you don't have much losing left to do.  Looking at your upper body, I think there is just not much fat left, so it kind of makes sense that you are losing less.  Your body may be trying to hold on to muscle.  You work out a lot and you are mostly eating clean.  As hard as it to be patient.  I think the surgery will make a big difference in how you look and then how you feel.  You might have 20 pounds of extra skin, even if you only have 10, you have a really fit body under that extra skin that needs to come off.  I don't think you need to feel bad for whining.  we need to feel our feeling now, not just eat them like we did in our old lives.  I've always tried to hide any negative emotions, now its time to feel them and talk about them and where is it more safe to do that than here.  You are about 75 shades of amazing and strong and smart and funny and beautiful.  keep your head up and start making X's on your calendar until the months until surgery slip away.  That 1/2 marathon training will make it fly by.  I'm going to try out a new support group next Saturday morning in Woodland Hills.  Some members have been going for 9 or 10 years.  Let me know if you want to come along.  Even on your worst day you are so strong and healthy compared to before surgery.  I think this hard time must be a pretty normal bump in the road.  Your hard work and dedication just got you there more quickly than some of the rest of us.  Call me any time you need to talk.  If I'm not still in your phone, send me a pm and I'll give you my number.

I know we all have our ups and downs, but you have come a long way. There have been people in my life that did nothing about their morbid obesity that have died because of it. You did something and now you have a healthier life. You are able to be athletic, heck Mike was so excited to find out that you are both running that 1/2 marathon. I think that after you get that skin cut off, you'll be in a better place. I know that it won't solve everything, but I do think that once you are not dealing with it anymore you'll be able to enjoy your accomplishments more. So, Mike and a coworker are running 10 miles in the morning, are you training? I so want a photo of the two of you (and anyone else from this board who is running) at the finish line.

There will be lots of pics with all of us. Ms Shell will be finishing with us as well :). I know it's easy to lose perspective so I just have to put it out there and put in writing so I make myself re-focus.