A little disappointed in myself

I love this response! I am having such a CRAPPY day and this helps me so much. Am going to have to read it over and over and let it sink in. Thank you!

Discouragement is no little problem to deal with. Not fun. We all have it, in our different ways, and somehow we feel down on ourselves, even though the accomplishments totally outweigh the blessings we have in our weight loss journey. We are not perfect. We will fail at times and what will make us stronger is remembering that and getting back on our journey and changing things, if needed, or just counting the blessings to remind us of where we have been and what the journey has been about.

Hoping this discouragement is fleeting for you and that you are back where you want to be soon and just plain enjoying this journey. I have read your posts for some time now and you are such an encouragement to us all. You shame me in the exercise realm. Your WL is incredible and you are a healthy, active, happy woman. You are reaching your goals and enjoying life. Hoping the next three months will not drag and that all will go perfectly for your coming surgery.

Hi Allison

You sound so sad and I'm sorry for that.  Since I'm only about 6 weeks out, I am not as experienced as so many others here, and I don't know you well other than from all your posts -- which are always spot on and informative.  What I do have experience in is living a long time.  Sometimes, it's hard to see where we are because we are so close to a situation.  It's a cliche, but it's also true.

You know that you've lost an amazing amount of weight.  You know you have worked hard to do that.  You've also worked your skinny ass off in the gym, on the road, in the hills and wherever else you put your body through torture........OOPS, I mean exercise to get your body into the condition it is in today.  Yet it doesn't seem enough, does it? 

Have you thought that maybe some of these things are bothering you now because you have a long wait until you get the skin zapped off???  I don't know how bad yours is, but I'll wager a guess that maybe you're looking at 8-12 pounds of skin?   GADS, I hope I haven't insulted you, but my surgeon told me he thinks I'm looking at 10 pounds of skin if I lose the way he expects I will............you're WAY taller and have lost more than I will, so I hope that 8-12 pounds isn't too off.  Then you will be FAR away from 200 pounds.  I've seen the pix Jenn has put up -- you look like a TALL "itty bitty" already.  You look fantastic.

Maybe you're also not so motivated to lose more for reasons other than what I said above.  Maybe subconsciously you're "testing maintenance" and that you're more interested in your marathon and getting your body well-muscled and well-toned???  Or maybe I'm just a crazy old lady LOL  Just offering some thoughts that occupied my gray cells as I read your post.

Finally, you are NOT crying of nothing.  We have to vent our feelings -- better to shed a tear, throw a tantrum, scream bloody murder than turn to food.  And guess what you DID NOT DO???  You didn't turn to food...............I'm proud of you!!!

Ree

Im not really that sad...i hope it didnt come off that bad. Disappointed and slightly irritated with myself, but honestly, ive been chosing to eat more to train more, and move more, and I have no regrets (only minor regrets I guess).

Im PRAYING I have 20 lbs of skin coming off. I know 8-12 easily.


Ive become a little complacent with the WL....im happy where I am except for the skin, but im too close to 200 so i still have this anxiety about that which is prompting my whine session. Time will determine how far I want to get away from 200 haha.

hey whine all you want. but look back at what you have accomplished in 14 months. lost way more weight than most people do in that time. so 2 pounds this last month is not so bad. if you have drifted off plan a bit you can get back. and you are exercising well. when that skin comes off it will be a great thing so look forward, not backward. you are entitled to feel really proud of yourself and i hope you do!!   diane

I am proud...for sure. I am an entirely different person than Ive ever known before, and I can do things I only dreamed out before. I cannot believe I paid $100+ to run 13.1 miles in a couple months. 

 But damnnnnitt I dont want to be anywhere close to 200 lol. It just sounds like a horrible number.


I guess to get back on plan i need to figure out what that plan is. Ive spent the last month playing around with different calories/carb counts, but I havent spent long enough following any one plan to see if it works lol.

You have come a long way girl!!!! And you work hard... Don't throw the towel in yet.

Darn straight you need to be proud. From where you were before VSG to now, one word AMAZING my friend. This is just a suggestion take it or leave it. Take the scale and put it away for a time. With all the physical activity you are doing, you may not be losing weight, but you are for sure building mussel. Now, about paying $100 to go run, you have to think of it as motivation, other wise it sounds crazy. I know, I'm in the same boat you are in. I'll see you not only at the starting line, but at the finishing line too. "YOU CAN DO IT"

 Better bring your lawn chair for the finish line :). You'll be there for a while lol

I will just tell you that once you are truly done, your body redistributes so you'll fill out =)