"Where are they now" ... 4 year 8 month VSGer
Are you a fan of those weight loss reality shows...ie The Biggest Loser, Dance your Ass Off, Celebrity Fit Club (etc etc) well I often wonder...where are they now?? Did they keep the weight off? Are they part of the 5% that are successful or the 95% that aren't? Did you ever think that JUST because you had WLS you can't won't fall into the 95% category...well if you've been around the WLS world then you know good and well you CAN eventuatlly gain the weight back. It's about changing not just your stomach, but your mind, your spirit, your triggers, your LIFE.
Here I sit before you VSG done on November 26, 2007, making my surgery age 4 years 8 months. Wow...just putting those numbers down as I remember my mothers death almost a year before my surgery and thinking it's TIME. I can't walk in the footsteps of my dead, obesity rittled mothers tracks. Nope not me, so a year after I lost my mom I was scheduled to start my WLS journey. So here are my stats:
Pre Surgery Highest Weight = 345
Date of Surgery Weight = 302.6
Lowest Weight in October 2010 = 192
Weight Regain in December 2010 = 216.6
Current Weight August 1, 2012 = 222.2
What happened in 2010?? I woke up one day and was TIRED. Tired of weighing my food, tired of protein first, tired of being on a diet (and FYI I don't give a rats ass if you call it a diet or "lifestyle" change because in the end, you watch what you eat). Yup folks I was TIRED. So what did I do from October until December 31st...not a dayum thing. I didn't get on the scale daily, some meals were PURE sugar, not an oz of protein. I barely was drinking my water...BUT...just as I had done years prior I made it a point to get on the scale on December 31st...to a whopping 24.6lb regain in JUST 2 months.
What has happened SINCE December 31, 2010...ALMOST every bad habit that I had pre-op is setting up shop.
1. A little bit doesn't hurt = BULL****if that was the case they would say alcoholics have a drink every now and then...here's some crack, meth, etc. Does that mean I have to be perfect? I'm learning to a HUGE degree YES. Food may not have me breaking into your house to score my next fix, or driving down the street and plowing into you, BUT it does send me on a very dark spiral of despair.
2. Eating in the car doesn't count = BULL****yeah just because I grab something and eat it in the car those 200+ calories DO count and does NOT mean when I get home and it's "dinner" time I get to eat something else.
3. Have a cheat MEAL (like I didn't read have a cheat DAY which turns into at LEAST 2 days = Moderation I've heard it even told it, but yeah I can moderate my NON trigger foods, but the **** that HELPED me get to 345lbs, ummm if I could (only talking about ME here) moderate...yeah well I know the story. I wouldn't have needed WLS.
4. Bored eating/stress eating/celebratory eating/depression eating/baby shower eating/birthday eating/**** just plain old EATING is just ******g me 3 ways of Sunday. I am so tired of HAVING to eat...can't I just live off AIR??
5. Laying in bed and eating just before I go to sleep = ummm do I think I'm going to STARVE to death in the next 6-8 hours that I literally am laying on the bed eating and going to fall asleep in like 10 minutes???
NOW don't get me wrong I have MANAGED to NOT bring back quite a few of my bad habits, but the ones listed above are plaguing me...the awesome thing is that I will NOT give up.
I haven't quite figured out what WILL work as I sit here after gaining another 12lbs (lost a couple of them) but I'm still trying...maybe identifying here will help me. With that said I am trying another approah...wait for it!!
1. Mindful eating = Paying attention to WHY I am eating.
2. Eating ON a schedule and NOT deviating from THAT schedule. Food is fuel...food is fuel...FOOD IS FUEL damn it!! I need a schedule because I don't necessarily get physical hunger, but this HEAD of mine wants to eat every few seconds...wait for the full sensation to go away and fill it up again. It has got to stop, so it's time to start my schedule again.
6am-10am = Breakfast (90% especially M-F = Water, Protein Shake, Coffee)
10am = Snack
1pm = Lunch
4pm = Snack
7pm = Dinner
I guess this is IT for this report...the plan is to come back here every month until I'm BACK in Onederland and BACK under control!
Here I sit before you VSG done on November 26, 2007, making my surgery age 4 years 8 months. Wow...just putting those numbers down as I remember my mothers death almost a year before my surgery and thinking it's TIME. I can't walk in the footsteps of my dead, obesity rittled mothers tracks. Nope not me, so a year after I lost my mom I was scheduled to start my WLS journey. So here are my stats:
Pre Surgery Highest Weight = 345
Date of Surgery Weight = 302.6
Lowest Weight in October 2010 = 192
Weight Regain in December 2010 = 216.6
Current Weight August 1, 2012 = 222.2
What happened in 2010?? I woke up one day and was TIRED. Tired of weighing my food, tired of protein first, tired of being on a diet (and FYI I don't give a rats ass if you call it a diet or "lifestyle" change because in the end, you watch what you eat). Yup folks I was TIRED. So what did I do from October until December 31st...not a dayum thing. I didn't get on the scale daily, some meals were PURE sugar, not an oz of protein. I barely was drinking my water...BUT...just as I had done years prior I made it a point to get on the scale on December 31st...to a whopping 24.6lb regain in JUST 2 months.
What has happened SINCE December 31, 2010...ALMOST every bad habit that I had pre-op is setting up shop.
1. A little bit doesn't hurt = BULL****if that was the case they would say alcoholics have a drink every now and then...here's some crack, meth, etc. Does that mean I have to be perfect? I'm learning to a HUGE degree YES. Food may not have me breaking into your house to score my next fix, or driving down the street and plowing into you, BUT it does send me on a very dark spiral of despair.
2. Eating in the car doesn't count = BULL****yeah just because I grab something and eat it in the car those 200+ calories DO count and does NOT mean when I get home and it's "dinner" time I get to eat something else.
3. Have a cheat MEAL (like I didn't read have a cheat DAY which turns into at LEAST 2 days = Moderation I've heard it even told it, but yeah I can moderate my NON trigger foods, but the **** that HELPED me get to 345lbs, ummm if I could (only talking about ME here) moderate...yeah well I know the story. I wouldn't have needed WLS.
4. Bored eating/stress eating/celebratory eating/depression eating/baby shower eating/birthday eating/**** just plain old EATING is just ******g me 3 ways of Sunday. I am so tired of HAVING to eat...can't I just live off AIR??
5. Laying in bed and eating just before I go to sleep = ummm do I think I'm going to STARVE to death in the next 6-8 hours that I literally am laying on the bed eating and going to fall asleep in like 10 minutes???
NOW don't get me wrong I have MANAGED to NOT bring back quite a few of my bad habits, but the ones listed above are plaguing me...the awesome thing is that I will NOT give up.
I haven't quite figured out what WILL work as I sit here after gaining another 12lbs (lost a couple of them) but I'm still trying...maybe identifying here will help me. With that said I am trying another approah...wait for it!!
1. Mindful eating = Paying attention to WHY I am eating.
2. Eating ON a schedule and NOT deviating from THAT schedule. Food is fuel...food is fuel...FOOD IS FUEL damn it!! I need a schedule because I don't necessarily get physical hunger, but this HEAD of mine wants to eat every few seconds...wait for the full sensation to go away and fill it up again. It has got to stop, so it's time to start my schedule again.
6am-10am = Breakfast (90% especially M-F = Water, Protein Shake, Coffee)
10am = Snack
1pm = Lunch
4pm = Snack
7pm = Dinner
I guess this is IT for this report...the plan is to come back here every month until I'm BACK in Onederland and BACK under control!
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
My God - what brutal honesty! THANK YOU for sharing this with us. I think I'm a little in awe of your determination to be 100% honest with yourself and this forum. I think you're awesome - completely awesome. I wish you the best and am glad that you trust us enough (or don't care enough not to) to post.
Keep up the good work - the mind is the most powerful muscle we have right? You've proven that.
You know you can do this! Let us know how we can help.
Keep up the good work - the mind is the most powerful muscle we have right? You've proven that.
You know you can do this! Let us know how we can help.
Jeanne 
Height 5'7" HW: 314 SW: 293
Height 5'7" HW: 314 SW: 293
Thanks Jeanne,
I've posted on and off my struggles since 2010 and I'm STILL trying to find that magic equation to regain MY focus and stop the UPWARD trend. I thought I was doing good (not losing but not gaining) and then I wa**** with a load of stress here at work and BAM...my bad habits trippled and seeing 220 something almost 230 scared the **** out of me.
Thank you for the kind words.
Ms Shell
I've posted on and off my struggles since 2010 and I'm STILL trying to find that magic equation to regain MY focus and stop the UPWARD trend. I thought I was doing good (not losing but not gaining) and then I wa**** with a load of stress here at work and BAM...my bad habits trippled and seeing 220 something almost 230 scared the **** out of me.
Thank you for the kind words.
Ms Shell
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
I implore you to STOP then now...it is so flipping hard turning off the switch once I turned it on...focus!
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
We missed you Ms_Shell!!!! Thanks for wisdom. You give us a lot of things to think about and consider as we navigate our own VSG lives.
You'll get there, no doubt in my mind!
You'll get there, no doubt in my mind!
5'5" Goal reached, but fighting regain. Back to Basics.
Start Weight 246 Goal Weight 160 Current Weight 183
Starting size: 22, 2x
Current size: 12, L
Hey Poker...I've missed you guys too (ummm well some of you, lol)
I will because I'll never give up trying!!
I will because I'll never give up trying!!
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
Alas I "feel" the need to chew and going without I feel angry!! Thanks for suggesting it though...I'm not above saying I might give it a go!
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
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