Had an amazing moment tonight

 After forcing my tired, stressed out butt to the gym...it was sooo worth it. 

I did this hardcore "monster kick boxing" class that had me nervous before i even went. I was feeling like crap, irritated wtih my stomach and arm skin (its just not attractive in my workout clothes lol) but I went. 

During this class, we had some running drills in between stations. As I was running, I realized Ive never been so happy to be told to run. Sprinting was probably the easiest thing we did. But I had this flash back to every single year of my life in gym class when we had to run - those were some of the worst days of my life because I could never do it. I never a ran a mile in my life before I graduated from HS. I used to get so nauseated before I had to go to gym class because I was so out of shape and it was a constant humiliation. 

As I was reflecting back on this during our sprints, i almost felt like a weight had been lifted off of me - I realized I no longer fear a challenge - i dont hide in the corners, I don't run from the thought of exercise - I LOVE IT. Even though I get nervous when I try something new, I always am pushing myself, looking for a new physical challenge. I dont think Ive ever smiled so much during a workout - the instructor had to think i was nuts - dripping in sweat, breathing like I was about to die, and SMILING. I felt so free, so light. I saw myself in the mirror and I saw the athlete that Ive always wanted to be, and I saw a skinny person staring back at me. 

It was also great because I did my first jumping jack in forever - ive never thought that I could do them so I would always just do some weird shuffleversion of them, but tonight, I just did it. It was suc weird feeling - I even looked at myself in the mirror, saw all my jiggling skin and said I LOVE MY BODY. I am strong, and healthy, and alive. 

I just thought Id share because it was sucha gret moment for me.  And so many of you have inpsired me, and pushed me, and dragged me out of my mental funk lately. 

Youll have to forgive the typos - ipad and OH dont go well togeher. (I always forget to turn on the text option so I cant see what im writing)

I love this post! I need to take a page out of your book and start embracing my life, my health and my sagging skin :)

 Ive spent the last couple months in a major funk - probably dealing with some depression and anxiety issues, but im working on it, and im starting to feel better - I realized I have the option of being miserable, or not...so, im trying to chose the "not miserable" option even though its a lot of work :-p

Way to go!

Just awesome! Keep up the good work!

That's great u were able to enjoy ur time at the gym

What a great night for you! I loved reading your post, you've come a long way & a good example for all of us.

Bobbie

I'm glad you ended up enjoying the class. I also
I'm also glad that you're so honest about the struggle to want to go and being in a funk. It helps me feel more normal about how I feel about wanting to

 My job is really stressful and some days, I just want to go home and hide even though I always love a good workout - getting started is HARD somedays. It's totally normal but just gotta get up and go. I bring my workout clothes with me to work so i have no excuses not to just stop at the gym on my way home. 

Great story Alison. These funks are going around. Me too! No weight loss in over a month..,,