I'm making progress!!
So....it's been a long process, I've worked really hard at trying to change that thinking - mostly, I've controlled the behaviors assocaited with it, but...I realized yesterday that my *thinking* is changing too.
It started with a trip to starbucks where I bought a "protein box" (ie 50 g of carbs, 13 g of protein...seriously???). I dont even know why I bought it - i wasnt hungry, but I knew I was going out be running around all night. Soo...I had the calories left for the day, hit my protein goal already, and decided it was worth it. I ended up eating about 2 oz of fruit, and a hard boiled egg. And then came the yumy bread and PB section. I only thought about it for a minute - and before I really knew what I was doing, I threw the bread out of my window while I was driving...(yikes, i'm admitting to an expensive crime!). It felt good - liberating.
So then I started thinking about my weekend plans. I've been having some anxiety about a trip to Vegas and whether I want to be super strict with what I eat or whether I want to "relax and live a little - ie indulge haha". But for the last couple weeks, I couldn't really see anything in between. it was either going to be a very good weekend or a really bad one - food wise.
But after my starbucks incident - it occurred to me to go to Vegas and just take it one decision at a time. I dont need to know right now if I'm going to make poor decisions tomorrow. And if I eat some carbs tomorrow, that doesn't mean I need to eat them on Sunday. And I felt at peace with that. After 2 years, I finally feel, for the first time, that this is getting a little easier.
Sooo...i'm off to Vegas to celebrate my new life. The last time I was in Vegas i'm pretty sure I was close, if not over, 400 lbs and MISERABLE. I slept and ate the whole time. Didin't walk more than 1/4 mile at any given time. Now, I'm ready to do Vegas "skinny" style There will definitely be pics when I get back!
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
It's a process, and you have come so very, very far. Have a blast in Vegas, wish I was meeting you there! Oh the damage we could do and the fun we could have LOL
Have fun in Vegas !!!!
Remember.....when it comes to weight....it's a lie.......
What happens in Vegas.......dosn't always stay in Vegas !!!!!
frisco
SW 338lbs. GW 175lbs. Goal in 11 months. CW 148lbs. WL 190lbs.
" To eat is a necessity, but to eat intelligently is an art "
VSG Maintenance Group Forum
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/VSGM/discussion/
CAFE FRISCO at LapSF.com
Dr. Paul Cirangle
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
Nope.......
You can only lose three things in Vegas......
- Money
- Integrity
- Virginity
Hah !!!!
frisco
SW 338lbs. GW 175lbs. Goal in 11 months. CW 148lbs. WL 190lbs.
" To eat is a necessity, but to eat intelligently is an art "
VSG Maintenance Group Forum
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/VSGM/discussion/
CAFE FRISCO at LapSF.com
Dr. Paul Cirangle
Deb
Goal Reached in 12.5 Months
HW: 274 Pre-OpW: 266 SW: 254 CW: 125 GW: 145
You must permanently change your lifestyle if you want your weight loss to be permanent. You can do it!
You have made exceptional progress and so have I, because of you. Keep fighting that fight gurl. I'm in the ring with ya on your side, we can do this!!!
Next time, give me enough notice to go to Vegas with you!!! Damn, I would have gone if I could have & I would promise you no AMF's or chocolate covered yuckeos!! hahahaha!!!
Jenn
WWBD?
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
So....it's been a long process, I've worked really hard at trying to change that thinking - mostly, I've controlled the behaviors assocaited with it, but...I realized yesterday that my *thinking* is changing too.
It started with a trip to starbucks where I bought a "protein box" (ie 50 g of carbs, 13 g of protein...seriously???). I dont even know why I bought it - i wasnt hungry, but I knew I was going out be running around all night. Soo...I had the calories left for the day, hit my protein goal already, and decided it was worth it. I ended up eating about 2 oz of fruit, and a hard boiled egg. And then came the yumy bread and PB section. I only thought about it for a minute - and before I really knew what I was doing, I threw the bread out of my window while I was driving...(yikes, i'm admitting to an expensive crime!). It felt good - liberating.
So then I started thinking about my weekend plans. I've been having some anxiety about a trip to Vegas and whether I want to be super strict with what I eat or whether I want to "relax and live a little - ie indulge haha". But for the last couple weeks, I couldn't really see anything in between. it was either going to be a very good weekend or a really bad one - food wise.
But after my starbucks incident - it occurred to me to go to Vegas and just take it one decision at a time. I dont need to know right now if I'm going to make poor decisions tomorrow. And if I eat some carbs tomorrow, that doesn't mean I need to eat them on Sunday. And I felt at peace with that. After 2 years, I finally feel, for the first time, that this is getting a little easier.
Sooo...i'm off to Vegas to celebrate my new life. The last time I was in Vegas i'm pretty sure I was close, if not over, 400 lbs and MISERABLE. I slept and ate the whole time. Didin't walk more than 1/4 mile at any given time. Now, I'm ready to do Vegas "skinny" style There will definitely be pics when I get back!
I too am an 'all or nothing' person and I'm learning there is some middle ground!
Have a blast in VEGAS!!