Obsession, getting to goal, and other musings.
Oh that scale. It can make or break us. It can become an OBSESSION. How many of us daydream, "I want to be X weight in X days, weeks, months. We fixate on "the number".
Does the number on the scale define you? Does it make you who you are? Are you the same person at 260, 200, 160?
I think weight loss can change us in some respects. I had a hard time loving myself at 260. I hated that everyone could see my struggle with food, as evidence by my size 20 pants. Since my weight loss my self esteem has improved. But I dont think it was because of "the number" on the scale. It was because for once in my life, I starting putting myself first, starting caring about myself, and seeing how much strength I truly possessed. This is the beauty of our journey!
Something about the weight loss sparked that tenacity and vivaciousness that I had in me all along. So I am the same..but better. I am super-Kristen. Capable of doing anything I put my mind to. But super-Kristen emerged long before goal. I see now that she is NOT defined by the exact numbers on the scale. She lived at 135, 145, 155...
The point is, from this journey, the exact number on your scale does not define you. You are worthy no matter if you are 130, 140, 150, 160, 260. You must see the forest for the trees. Love yourself no matter if your scale never reads 125 and even if you never get into single sized jeans. Love yourself even if you don't hit goal in 6 months.
We got a second chance at life, the opportunity to change our life for the better, to become healthier, and to be able to embrace life more fully.
HW: 258lbs SW: 240 CW: 140 I am 5 foot 7 and 30 years old
VSG 12/21/10 Plastics: Tummy tuck, breast lift, and augmentation 11/3/11
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This is why I had a goal weight but I was flexible and tried to be realistic about it. I KNOW I will never wear a size 0 or be like the girls in fashion magazines. But that didn't mean I couldn't work toward healthy and happy! I made my goal weight, but guess what? That number does not define me. 330 didn't define me and neither does 145.
Love your posts, and thank you for being a major inspiration to me along my weight loss journey.
Leah
"Super Kristen"
If I close my eyes real tight.... I can see it !!!
Super Hero...... in that mighty stance....... fists on hips.....chin up....with just a little to much make-up.......bodysuit....boots.....sunglasses.......low camera angle......wind machine blowing your hair...... dog at your side........
Cut.......rap.....print.....
Sorry..... it got away from me.....
frisco
SW 338lbs. GW 175lbs. Goal in 11 months. CW 148lbs. WL 190lbs.
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