Never known myself..skinny..

My surgery is Thursday and I am not nervous about anything but...what it will be like to be skinny?!?! I have always been heavy and I am having a hard time wrapping my mind around what it will be like to be "normal" and not morbidly obese. I have always been the sassy fat girl. Did anyone else have trouble with this? 

 its a mind twist - thats for sure. Im still wondering the same thing - i have no idea whats its going to be like to be skinny. I cant even imagine it. 

I feel the same way..
Best wishes on your surgery and your new body!!
Skinny vibes..
Julie

 Being in the same boat as you, I can tell you it's the weirdest and greatest thing you will ever know! I like you, have been big ever since childhood. I started my journey at 308 and I am now 168. It's weird for people to tell me,"oh your so skinny" as I still see the big me in my head. I also feel that I don't deserve to be called skinny. It's weird when you go in a room and your not the biggest one in there and people stare at you because you look beautiful and not gawking at you because your the biggest in the room. I still feel like I don't belong in "normal" size stores and feel that sales clerks look at me that way! I guess it just takes awhile for your head to catch up. I can tell you though that being "skinny" has its perks. I love being able to fit in booths, cross my legs, walk flights of stairs,shop anywhere and always have energy. You will experience it all and it's a wild ride, but definitely one that you don't want to get off of because now you can fit in the seats! Lol! 

I'm not sure how to mention this, so here goes. If there is any possibility of your obesity being a 'cover' from being abused or assaulted when you were younger there may be a need for therapy in the future.

I have lost 100+# several times in the past, always getting to the weight that I am at this point. Each time I have struggled with the extra 'attention', whether it be from my husband or just the occasional flirt from a customer, etc. at work. This time around it isn't any easier to get past this stalemate I am finding myself in. IT IS however easier to continue to maintain at the weight I am at. In the past the weight would have just rebound, however I have stayed at this weight now for about 4 months.

I'm ok with that as I know there is some 'head issues', and 'catching up' that I need to go through. I have also been on a restrictive exercise limit due to some physical problems I had starting at Thanksgiving which required surgery in Dec. I am still off of work, and amazed I survived not only the holiday season but also 8+ weeks off of work with minimal weight gain.

The reason I mention the abuse/assault issue is that when I first started reading on this forum someone else mentioned having to work through some issues also. I didn't really acknowledge my abuse/assault until after my surgery....after all, it was 35-45+ years ago. "How could that possibly be the problem?" I thought. Now I have come to realize this is why I would hit the 225# mark and then rebound.

Best wishes. This is a marathon, not a sprint, and I'm still aiming for the prize!

I am xious to see what it feels like also.  to my best recollection, I don't think I have any abuse issues in my childhood, but I do have an issue with people commenting on my weight loss.  Whenever people start noticing it, I start to gain it back; it makes me uncomfortable to have guys whistle or watch me or flirt.  Maybe, now that I am older, that won't happen?!

But I know this head issue will love being smaller and in good-looking clothes and feeling healthy!

Best wishes on your upcoming VSG!  You are going to love it.   (protein shakes of course in the mugs!)

It's good that you recognize your discomfort of attention.  It will give you the ability to better deal with it. And oh yeah.....the good-looking smaller clothes and a butt that fits into any chair is definately a great boost! 

Can't wait to hear of your successes!

I definitely can't answer your question what it's like to be skinny... What I can tell you though is that it takes your head a little while to catch up to your body. I am still pretty new at all this post-op business and it is one crazy (but amazing) ride.
I find a lot of people say things like: "WOW! What are you doing?" "You look amazing" "Your Melting!"
I'm usually shocked people notice and think I am melting away... My head definitely isn't losing the Fat Me image as fast as my body is...
I wish you all the best on your journey! It was the best thing I've done yet!

Yes, definitely.  I am currently at my lowest adult weight ever.  I've never been this small since middle school.  It's a big of a mind bender.  It will take awhile for your head to catch up to your body.  I can still look down at my body and see the old me (obese).  And when I hope on the scale, my head still automatically puts a "2" in front of the numbers instead of the "1" that's really there. 

I'm getting attention that I don't really want.  For example, I was sitting at a hotel bar with a female co-worker last night.  We are traveling for business and just wanted something to drink (glass of ice water for me) before bed.  The guy next to me immediately started hitting on me.  I just didn't see that coming and it didn't happen when I was larger (at least not much... and I am married by the way, so it's been awhile since I've been hit on by a stranger).  Then, a little while later, a guy at the other end of the bar sent the bartender over because he wanted to buy me a drink.  I just politely declined.  I wasn't mentally prepared for that to happen and it messed with my mind for a second.  Now that I've had time to think about it, I'm not bothered by it, but I also don't want that attention.  If that makes sense.

I am in counseling to help with this journey and I highly recommend it to everyone!  The mental stuff is half the battle!

I haven't been a normal weight for my height, since 2nd grade or so.  To be a size 10 pant, and medium/large shirt is just weird to me.... It's not bad, just weird :)  People make all kinds of nice comments about my weightloss, but honestly, I don't feel much different on the inside...  Maybe someday I'll get my mind wrapped around this whole "being a normal size" thing, but I'm not there yet...