A real life situation that shows WHY some of us are militant..(very long)

WOW - what an amazing post, and it really grabbed me and shook me today.  Thank you for your brutal honesty.  I know my binge tendencies aren't "cured", they're just lurking, waiting for a moment of weakness.  I could hear myself and the way my brain justifies my behavior in the way you described the various stages of the process.  I find myself rationalizing things that don't make any sense at all.  My body's throwing all sorts of signals my way telling me it's full, it's time to stop eating, but I'm so d****ed determined to finish the portion I measured out for myself because, I "get" to eat so little, I "deserve" to at least finish my portion.  What the h###?  How on earth is it a reward to eat beyond what I actually want?!?

I'm so awed by your self-awareness, and even more, but the support system you've clearly developed with your husband.  Mine knows I have eating issues, but shame still tempts me to hide food and behaviors from him. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you for posting this.  It's given me a lot to think about.

Thanks for sharing. You should be really proud of your self-awareness and courage. Being aware is half the battle, kudos to you for recognizing your trigger foods and knowing how it all goes downhill, some people never figure that out. 

Today is a new day, and you don't need to punish yourself anymore. Take care of your body, maybe "reward your sleeve" today by just giving it some nice protein shakes and water and maybe a snack. Poor little sleevy got all stuffed last night. ;)

You did the right thing by posting here and getting support. Way better than pouting in the corner and punishing yourself some more!

Hugs and prayers.....don't beat yourself up about it...we all have a moment and the main thing is to get up and exercise and move on.  We are weak.  That is why we had to have this surgery in the first place.  If we could easily back away from temptations then we would all be skinny little healthy people.  That isn't the case.  IT all takes trial and error and forgiveness. 

I recognized my thoughts and feelings in just about everything you said.  Thank you so much for being able to share this with everyone and reminding us how quickly things can spiral out of control.  We truly are addicts and its a daily struggle....even with the sleeve. 

I'm glad you righted the ship quickly and you have a wonderful support system at home....(what a great husband). 

that was an awesome post.  and completely relatable.  i am a food addict too and i understood every single word you were typing....

and it helps me big time since i have not had surgery yet

Thank you so much for writing this post-- I can identify with so much of what you have so wonderfully described. The feelings of what your limitations might be compared to what they should be and really are, the feelings of control that we think we may have compared to what we should or actually have, and then the feelings of regret and disgust and everything else that come from slipping up are all familiar to me.

I'm thankful that you were so brave to type out and submit this post-- I know it had been helpful to me to read as I'm sure it has also helped so many on OH reading these boards.

Keep up the good work, keep posting, and keep up with your personal introspection and insight-- combined with your excellent support system at home, it's what's going to get you to where you need and want to be in weightloss and beyond.