I need a hug... or a kick in the butt... feeling sorry for myself

I've been in a bit of a funk the past couple of days. Yes, I have a counselor and I'll talk to her about it, but I just cannot shake this. I KNOW I've done well. I've lost 105 total (85 since surgery) in less than six months. I'm over half way to my "what does that look like" goal. I *know* intellectually that I am on track and doing fine...

I'm just... annoyed with myself. I've lost that much and yet I see people at group, on here, etc that are my size now or even smaller just starting their journey. I feel like... I dunno... like HOW did I manage to do that to myself? And the weight loss has slowed down the regular 2-3 pounds per week. So, of course I keep thinking I won't lose it all.

I know I will. But I just can't totally shake myself out of it. 

It's silly right?

It doesn't help that my period just left so I'm feeling all blah and have only lost a pound this week. *laughing* You men have it WAY too easy, dammit.

I'll be fine... someone tell me to stop complaining, start exercising regularly and sleep more. That probably isn't helping anything either, if I'm being honest.

I also still have this whole "this thing might not work for me" voice in my head. Again... ugh. I think because it's just happened so fast (yet so freaking slowly) that my head just doesn't know what to do.

Okay, no reason to really respond... just wanted to put that out there.

OMG. Yes. It's NEVER going to end. That's it exactly. I'm just tired of the whole diet thing. I'm tired of looking for water. I'm tired of being "creative" when I go out. I'm just tired of it all.

But you know... having said that I just realized that this is probably why traditional diets don't work for me. I burn out. I get annoyed. I give up. I guess part of it is also that I can't really just give up. Yeah, I can screw around and not lose anything, but I can't really totally blow it.

Ugh. Yeah. Thanks. That's exactly the problem.

I know. I'm doing the right things. I'm just... yes. Tired. Of it. It's endless.

LOL, you sound like my husband. When I was pregnant, I was INSANE. I remember sitting down after breaking the last of my favorite noodle bowls we got in Hawaii and crying and laughing and crying and laughing and my husband just standing there, looking at me, and he just said "Honey, I don't know what to do right now and not get in trouble". *laughing*

(I guess this is why he jumped at the chance to get the big V when we said we were done with kids) Ha!

Sending a hug and a response.   Funny you should write this today   I've lost over 70 pounds since I started this journey on June 30th and today I had a bad day...I just felt huge.  I know I have lost weight and other days I feel good but today...not so much.

Hang in there. It's not silly.  It's your valid feelings and it WILL pass.

... and why is that? Some days I feel like I'm huge and other days, I feel like I weigh 115. I swear, it's all a head game that's out to make us go crazy.

Thanks. We'll be okay. Our heads just haven't caught up. Or something.

Here is a hug! You are doing great with the weight loss and I am proud of you. It does get better. I am a year out now and I feel so much better now. Happy Holidays to you and yours!

Thanks. You are right. I should focus on how much better I feel. I mean, I can do 5ks now - walking them, but still - I could barely go around the block six months ago. I think I lose sight of that too easily.

Happy holidays to you too and thanks!

I haven't had the sleeve yet, but I know where you are coming from. I see people on here that are about to be sleeved and I think, "but they are what I am striving to be" or "i would kill to be that size and they are gettin sleeved??" It's hard whn you start out above the pack...but 105 pounds lost!! that brings tears of joy to my eyes! That is so amazing and worth being proud of...Everybody struggles at times. You are not alone. You have come so far-just take it one day or even a minute at a time. The rest will come off. In the meantime feel grateful and so excited that you have lost 105 pounds!!!

I know. I try not to think that way... they just smartened up sooner than I did. *laughing* We all have our own journey, etc etc... but yeah.

You can do it too. If I can do it, anyone can. I've spent 30 years of my life overweight (since Kindergarden!). What's one more year while I get some more of this off, right?

Thanks for the cheerleading. I needed it. I sometimes forget that... well... I've lost as much as a middle school student weighs!

You have had AMAZING weight loss!! Good for you! I, too, am a bit down, so I completely understand. For some reason I feel like I'm not going to lose anymore, it stops here kind of feeling. I'm only one month out, so clearly I need to pick myself up and keep going. Your success gives me hope!